“okay.”
Kang Ha-jun responded to Eun-yul’s explanation as if it was okay without saying more. Instead, he pushed the snack in front of him. It meant not just drinking, but filling your stomach.
Seeing that, I again felt a sense of disconnect from the Kang Ha-jun I knew. He was only kind to Hyunje, so I couldn’t believe he would do this to me no matter how much Haneul was there.
‘I do not know.’
Because of that, Eun-yul cleared her confused mind and opened her mouth to Kang Ha-jun.
“Originally I wasn’t going to ask.”
When I entered Kang Ha-jun’s house, Eun-yul said something.
‘I won’t ask you why you didn’t get married. I won’t get caught up in that, so please sort that out as well.〉
Called.
Now that I was thinking about asking that, I felt embarrassed at first. However, if I didn’t ask, it would be like missing the core of the original work and only focusing on side details, so I was embarrassed in one way or another.
“You can ask.”
“uh… … . “Why aren’t you married?”
Kang Ha-jun said he could ask everything, so Eun-yul did not hesitate.
“You mean Jeha?”
When Kang Ha-jun called his name in a friendly way, Eun-yul avoided his gaze, pretending to drink beer. As expected, even if they are not married yet, their relationship would be quite close. Maybe it’s a little late, but you might be planning to get married.
“We broke up.”
Then why am I at his house… … what?
“… … Are you breaking up?”
You broke up with Hyun Je-ha?
“okay.”
“when?”
“Not long ago.”
Kang Ha-jun shook his head and did not mention the specific time period.
“And to be precise, we weren’t even engaged before getting married.”
“why not?”
Eunyul asked to herself as if she really couldn’t understand. It was proof that it was that confusing. Although she knows that she is not married to Hyeon Je-ha now, and although she overheard that she postponed her engagement, she did not expect that they would have broken up.
“no way… … “Is it because of the sky?”
Since they said they had recently broken up, I wondered if the cause was theirs, or Haneul to be exact.
Eunyul’s voice became sharper without realizing it, as if she was using Haneul as the reason for their breakup.
“There is no influence from Haneul. But more than that, I couldn’t shake the feeling that it was out of sync.”
Kang Ha-jun’s answer was unexpected, so Eun-yul frowned and hoped that he would explain further.
“I had a new goal of my own, so I couldn’t look back at Jeha… … When Jeha went to study abroad, we were apart for a long time. “I guess the timing wasn’t right.”
At the garden, I heard that Hyun Je-ha went to study abroad. As expected, did that serve as one of the reasons for the separation between the two?
‘Or it could be a change that occurred because we didn’t get closer to each other.’
In the original work, there was no mention of Hyeon Je-ha going abroad to study. After Seong-eun Yul commits suicide at the inn, her crush on Kang Ha-jun and Hyun Jae-ha deepens, developing into love, and the novel ends.
“I’ve been out for almost four years. “It was only recently that I came in, and that’s how we ended up breaking up.”
“I thought it was strange, but… … .”
Eunyul was embarrassed and said out loud what she should have thought. Then I realized my mistake and saw Kang Ha-jun, but he didn’t care. Rather, he was smiling a little bitterly.
“It’s all my fault.”
It seemed like they didn’t realize that what I was talking about was the original. Well, since Seong Eun-yul was harassing Hyeon Je-ha at the time, we can assume that he knew enough about it.
“But why do you say that the sky is also the cause? no way… … .”
“no. We didn’t forget what we promised. I’m not trying to take Haneul away. “I just wanted to sort out the vague emotions I was carrying around and focus on Haneul.”
‘Why on earth have we become so ambiguous? Didn’t you have a crush on him?’
“You liked Hyeon Je-ha.”
“What’s stuck in my memory is… … .”
Ha-Jun Kang was about to say something as if he were retorting, but he omitted the last words. Eunyul, who was curious about the person and was wondering if he was only talking about the first part, looked at the room where Haneul was sleeping.
‘Let’s not do that.’
To be honest, I wasn’t in a position to say anything to Kang Ha-jun. I gave birth to the child without telling Kang Ha-jun, and since he treated me so kindly and kept hanging around me, I just showed my dissatisfaction without realizing it.
If you think about the original Seong Eun-yul, Kang Ha-jun is someone who doesn’t need to be this good to him.
“Anyway, I’m alone now.”
When Eun-yul asked in a slightly softened tone, Kang Ha-jun nodded.
After that, the conversation between the two disappeared. Eun-yul drank beer and thought about the changes from the original, and Kang Ha-jun had a lot he wanted to say, but waited.
“Now ask me too.”
Eunyul, who was belatedly opening a new beer, said after seeing Kang Hajun’s expression.
“I’m thinking of having a child… … “How did you do it?”
Eunyul held the beer to her lips for a moment and just rolled her eyes. I expected him to ask about Haneul, but when I tried to answer, I couldn’t find the words.
“ha.”
Then, thinking that she would eventually answer if she avoided it, Eunyul sighed and relaxed her body. Perhaps because his shoulders slumped and relaxed a little, I gained a little courage to answer.
“Because I’m lonely.”
I was an orphan before I became Seong Eun-yul, and I was also an orphan when I became Seong Eun-yul. In the original, Eun-yul was more interested in other things than the fact that I was an orphan, but he himself missed the warmth of people.
In that sense, this worldview where a man could become pregnant and give birth to a child was awkward, but it wasn’t a bad thing when I found out I was actually pregnant.
“I hated being lonely my whole life, but being pregnant is a good thing. So I gave birth right away.”
It was a light reply, but it was sincere. She was embarrassed when her last name was Yul, but after she started her own family, those feelings disappeared like snow.
“When did you have a hard time?”
“When a child is sick.”
This was nothing to worry about.
“When my child had a fever, he stayed up all night. “I kept measuring my temperature with a thermometer and wiping my body temperature with a towel to see if we were playing a game.”
I was more scared of Haneul being sick than not having money. When I saw Haneul groaning in pain or wearing a heat patch on her forehead, my heart couldn’t have been so heavy.
“Other than that, I’ve never had any difficulties.”
“That’s amazing.”
Kang Ha-jun spoke sincerely and held a beer. And seeing him drinking beer, Eunyul lowered her gaze to her own beer.
I was embarrassed because I felt like I was being recognized for no reason by saying that I was great.
‘What am I thinking now?’
Eunyul cleared her throat, blaming herself for thinking something strange at a meeting where she was planning to ask how much had changed from the original.
“that… … “What is your new goal?”
I was glad that I remembered what Kang Ha-jun had said earlier. Because you just had to ask that.
It seemed like he was successful in changing the flow of the conversation, but Kang Ha-jun couldn’t continue speaking right away because it was difficult to answer the question. He looked at the beer distantly, frowned, and glared at me.
When Kang Ha-jun, who had organized his complicated thoughts, raised his head, Eun-yul, who had been staring at him without realizing it, flinched.
I was looking at Kang Ha-jun too intently.
“plural.”
“… … Revenge?”
Just when Eunyul was feeling sorry for herself as to why she was staring at Kang Ha-jun so intently, Eun-yul tilted her head as if she couldn’t understand.
The Kang Ha-jun I saw leaning sideways was also Kang Ha-jun. Kang Ha-jun, who marries Hyun Je-ha and ends up eating well and living well.
This is clearly Kang Ha-jun, who took revenge on his father… … .
“Five years ago, I saw someone’s face with determination.”
Kang Ha-jun did not answer Eun-yul’s question right away. He felt frustrated by the roundabout way of saying things, but Eunyul quietly listened to his words.
Honestly, I felt like I knew who someone was from 5 years ago without me having to tell them.
“The moment I saw him, my thoughts changed.”
“That’s revenge? “Does the genre change like this?”
I muttered, wondering if the genre had changed to noir rather than the love story of Kang Ha-jun and Hyun Je-ha.
“My loved one died before my eyes. “I don’t want to live with just burying it.”
Eunyul closed her mouth.
‘In front of your eyes?’
I knew who the lover was talking about, but I didn’t know that Kang Ha-jun was watching at the time. He thought he knew all about the hardships Kang Ha-jun went through, but that wasn’t the case.
You weren’t simply abandoned by your father. Kang Ha-jun saw her mother die… … .
“Wait.”
Eunyul was embarrassed and stretched out her hand as if to stop him.
“Have you ever told this story to anyone else?”
“No, there is not. “I couldn’t do it.”
As Kang Ha-jun took a moment to catch his breath, Eun-yul tried to tell him that there was no need to say anything more. So far, he has only said it is revenge, but has not expressed exactly who it is.
Still, it was enough. Rather, I wished it had not been mentioned directly from Kang Ha-jun’s mouth.
“Who can I tell that it was my father who killed my mother?”
I was hoping I wouldn’t be the first to officially know his secret… … .
he said
Eunyul lowered her raised hand and swallowed a sigh.
Another problem was that the original work was distorted. Because it no longer feels weird when things happen that go beyond my expectations.
But the bigger problem is… … .
‘I was just trying to find my own way to live, so why did I even have to change Kang Ha-jun?’
* * *
“So what you’re saying is that I was the reason the original work was changed.”
What did I say? If others heard it, it was something that would make them wonder if it was some kind of disease or if you were the main character. To be honest, I was just a foreign object and a villain.
Even though Seong Eun-yul was a very bad guy, he wasn’t the type of villain who could really harm Ha-jun Kang.
So just think of it as nothing… … .
