Chapter 486
In fact, the idea that Regai was a place where ordinary people except for Luna were overturned after seeing Arta.
It couldn’t be an ordinary village where there was a guy who was about the same age as me and who was that skilled in magical power enhancement.
That night.
“I heard from Arta what my problem was today.”
At dinner with Ellen’s parents and her husband, I said that.
“What did you hear?”
At Ronan’s question, Ellen’s father, I took a bite while soaking the bread in the stew.
“They say my magical power enhancement is overly inefficient.”
“I see.”
Ronan nodded silently, and Luna quietly ate dinner.
Overly emotional.
Couldn’t he have said that more bluntly like Arta? It would have been better to be precise than to be round about it.
Do these two want me to realize everything on my own?
Isn’t that way too time consuming?
Even though I knew that nervousness was eating me up, I couldn’t let go of it.
“Reinhardt.”
Ronan quietly calls me.
“yes.”
He puts the bread down on his plate and shows his index finger up.
“The magic within the body is the flame of the heart.”
“… … yes.”
I could understand to some extent what the analogy was.
From Ronan’s index finger, blue magic begins to rise like smoke.
Just as Luna is not an ordinary person, I thought that Ronan would not be an ordinary person.
“Do you think the emphasis of the word “fire in the heart” is stamped on the heart, or is it stamped on the flame?”
“mind… … It must be.”
“Yeah, you know that.”
The blue magic that rose from the tip of Ronan’s index finger soon began to flicker like a very small flame like a candle.
“If your heart is still, the fire in your heart will also be quiet.”
The flames from his fingers suddenly become huge and begin to fluctuate.
“If your heart is confused, so will the fire in your heart be.”
The flames of magical power that burned as if they were going to tear the air in all directions actually made the air in the living room vibrate.
“If your heart is dark.”
spurt.
As if the form of the blue mana had fundamentally changed, it began to sway wildly with the color of black darkness.
“The spark in your heart reacts to your darker side, and this might change.”
-Kurrure
“but.”
The black flame on Ronan’s fingertips disappears, and pure blue magic begins to dwell again.
“Your mind is not confused.”
“It’s not even dark.”
“Without being swayed by any emotions that cloud your mind.”
“Beyond the stillness.”
“Beyond Serenity.”
“If you advance to the stage called the clearing of the clear water or the immovable mind.”
“If, above all else, you will gain a firm and strong heart, peace and tranquility of mind, and confidence, free from any doubts.”
“What about the flames in your heart?”
What rose from his index finger was no longer smoke or flame.
“If the flame of the heart is no longer wavered, what will it be?”
The magic power that flowed from his fingertips did not shake or sway.
A straight line of magical power.
It stretched out from the tip of the index finger and grew longer and soon took on a single shape rather than a wavering shape.
A flame with a form.
A flame that no longer flickers.
It soon takes on a shape similar to that of matter.
intangible sword.
A sword made from the heart.
Ronan Artorius summoned the aura sword and cut the bread with the sword extending from his fingertips.
“The moment when the flame in your heart can no longer be a flame.”
“… … .”
“You will get what you want.”
-widely!
After Ronan finished talking, he cut a plate while trying to cut bread with an aura sword.
“… … .”
“… … honey?”
Luna stares at Ronan.
Ronan gulped and began to look at Luna.
“That, that… … . Hey… … .”
“Let’s talk for a minute.”
“Oh, no. honey… … .”
“Follow me.”
“yes… … .”
Luna grabbed Ronan’s arm and led him out, and Ronan turned blue and was dragged away.
Anyway, Luna is also Luna.
In fact, it might be an obvious story.
Ronan Artorius was no ordinary person either.
* * *
The mana within the body is the flame of the heart.
Since the mind is fluid, the flowing magic power also takes on a fluid form.
However, if the mind is no longer shaken, the magic power, the flame of the heart, is no longer shaken.
It didn’t change the fact that that was the first thing I had to do right now.
After Ronan, who seemed to have heard a lot of talking outside, stumbled into the master bedroom, Luna looked at me and said quietly.
“Let’s go for a little walk.”
“Ah yes.”
Actually, it’s been a while since I came to Lizaira, but I haven’t talked too much with Luna or Ronan.
Lizaira is not the type of person who wanders around at night. Night in the mountains comes early, and life here tends to start at dawn and end after noon.
Regardless of the reality of Lizaira, the lifestyle of this village was not much different from that of the countryside.
Luna walks quietly beside me.
“Do you remember when was the last time you cried?”
I was in a bit of a bad mood at her sudden question.
Why are you asking this?
“well… … .”
Have I ever cried?
I honestly don’t remember. Probably didn’t cry.
“I don’t know. little luck… … . I don’t think there was.”
Luna walks quietly through the village and asks.
“Then, when do you think you should cry?”
“… … .”
I never had any luck, but was there a moment when I felt like I had to cry?
Thinking about it, I felt like I was out of breath.
I have failed and am failing at many things. In the midst of that failure, I was trying to get some success.
Was there a moment when you felt like you had to cry?
Luna stopped walking and looked at me.
“Every day is like that.”
“… … .”
“yes?”
For the first time in my life, I felt like someone’s words were hitting my heart.
She gently puts her hand on my cheek.
“If you fail to cry when you have to cry, the tears collect in your heart and rot.”
“Reinhardt.”
“Because I can’t cry when I should. Every day is the day I want to cry.”
“so.”
“You don’t know that living through those days has finally ruined your heart.”
To endure something.
To hold back from crying.
Is it just making me sick? I look at Luna and speak quietly.
“There is nothing that can be solved by crying.”
Why was there no day when I wanted to cry?
If she could have solved and resolved something by shedding tears, she would have done so.
Tears are just tears.
There is a limit to the sorrow that can be poured out and relieved with it.
Sobbing is just a reminder of how miserable and painful you are.
It’s just to see how sick I am.
so i didn’t cry
Because I thought that nothing could be solved with tears.
I came this far because moving forward was the only thing I had to do.
“If the condition for me to move on to the next level is to have an unshakable heart, then wouldn’t there be a need to cry more or pour out what I’m thinking?”
If what Ronan Artorius said is what I need, I don’t need tears anymore.
At my words, Luna shook her head.
“You misunderstood Ronan’s words.”
“… … .”
“There is no way that having no heart is the same as having an unshakable heart.”
Doesn’t have a heart mean it’s not immobility, it’s indifference.
“… … .”
“I don’t mean to let go of those feelings.”
Luna stares into my eyes.
“I can read despair, fear, abyss, and guilt in you.”
“Nevertheless, something that should not be shaken.”
“A clear mind, even in the face of those feelings.”
“Isn’t that the attitude you should have?”
“I heard that a fearful battle is right in front of you.”
“It will surely give you greater fear and fear than the current anxiety and nervousness.”
“If you can’t overcome nervousness and anxiety even at this moment and don’t have a steadfast mind, the same will happen in the fight later.”
Was she leaving me alone to stimulate my nervousness and anxiety?
If you can’t use your strength properly in the midst of anxiety now, you won’t be able to use your strength properly in a bigger crisis later.
Like a pre-education.
Was that why you left me alone?
“You will be anxious. I’ll be nervous. The heart will become more and more urgent.”
“Nevertheless, you must not waver.”
The nervousness and anxiety I feel right now are not the same anyway.
In later fights, I have to face even greater fear and fear.
What you can’t do now because of anxiety and nervousness will become even more impossible later.
So now in Lizaira, I must find a mind that overcomes fear, not a law that castrates it.
“likewise.”
Luna puts her hand on my cheek and smiles.
“Tears can’t solve anything, but I hope you know that tears are necessary.”
Tears can’t solve anything. That’s why it’s important.
I think I knew what that meant before.
The current me and the past me were so different that I couldn’t understand what Luna was saying.
“I think that the most unnecessary things for people are actually what people need the most, the very important things that make people human.”
“What are you talking about… … . I don’t know.”
“Oops, did you forget?”
Luna smiles.
“That we’ve been talking about the heart.”
It is not necessary for a person to have a heart.
But, does that mean that a person without a heart cannot be a person?
I couldn’t understand Luna’s words, but I couldn’t deny them.
* * *
In the end, I have to overcome my nervousness, anxiety, and fear.
If you strengthen your magic power alone and embrace unanswered problems, your anxiety will increase.
Rather, I felt that struggling alone with an unanswered problem would only make it worse.
So, I felt the need to distance myself a little.
I have to distance myself from the many problems that have popped up in my head.
The more urgent you are, the more urgent you are.
You have to clear your head.
I talked a lot with Luna and Ronan, but not much has changed.
Luna and Rona still neglected me. I gave a hint, but I didn’t see it myself.
However, once I knew what Luna and Ronan wanted to a certain extent, I also felt that wanting them to look after me was an unreasonable demand.
Because life in the mountain village was busy.
Life in mountain villages begins before sunrise.
Ronan didn’t know when he would return because he led the villagers on a hunt from dawn. Luna woke up earlier than Ronan, so she had to feed her breakfast and let her go, so she woke up earlier.
The people who remained in the village also got up at dawn to work in the fields, and it was the same with Luna.
After noon, the people who stayed in the village were not busy doing the laundry or cutting wood.
When the hunters returned, they gathered together to dry the skins of the animals they had hunted, to smoke the meat to store it, or to make sausages.
Although calm, everyone was having a full day.
I’m nervous and anxious, but I’m a human too, so I had no choice but to say that.
“I… … . mother.”
“huh?”
“I have to do something too. What can I do… … .”
Being a guest is a day or two.
I couldn’t stand it because my conscience, the size of a pea, had been stabbed for almost 20 days without helping anything.
I want to do something bizarre like helping a village in the mountains while playing the role of king in Edina, arguing about the fate of the world and all.
I wanted to get out of the painful feeling of noticing more because people didn’t notice.
“You’re asking too soon.”
Luna smiled and handed over the water bottle.
“Fill it up with some water. full.”
What the hell am I doing here?
