<Aaron Side Story Episode 49>
6. Beyond Nihilism (5)
after a while
Aaron realized a forgotten memory.
That I couldn’t protect my family because I didn’t have the power.
And that I couldn’t help my colleagues.
Aaron was engulfed in deep-seated trauma.
Most people who come here are like that.
Usually, if it doesn’t work, I give up, and I don’t go that far.
Aaron can’t stop even if he wants to stop.
‘ha.’
How many patients have you killed?
The boy reminded Aaron of his purpose and tried to induce treatment.
‘Did you say Nina?’
My only family and sister.
For the sake of that child, Aaron said he had to return alive.
If that’s the case, there’s no need to be strong.
‘I just need to go back.’
Still, he didn’t give up.
Undeterred by the threat of being kicked out, Aaron remained here.
If only my life is preserved, I don’t know if I can meet my sister safely.
The boy lowered his eyes.
In front of an open dimension door.
There was Aaron who couldn’t set foot in the end.
“Are your feet not falling?”
Aaron turns to the boy.
Eyes were shaking.
“I guess your real goal wasn’t to meet your sister.”
“That was… … Are you afraid? I am… … .”
“I expected it. It could be. Then, I tried to kick her butt off… … .”
the boy didn’t
“It’s strange.”
What should I call my condition?
It is different from before.
It was as if the mind and body were playing separately.
“I am… … Nina… … .”
“Fuck it, Aaron. Let’s do it in moderation. You didn’t come here for your sister, did you?”
that’s right
It’s not once or twice that I meet someone like you.
Right.
The boy snapped his fingers, and the portal to Niflheim closed.
“Now I only need to know one thing. Will you die, or will you move on to the next level.”
“… … !”
“Don’t wait.”
Yes too.
Because there is no way that mental illness can be cured.
‘… … .’
One course left.
Whether Aaron’s desire is mixed with impurities.
Or is it a transparent and pure dream?
‘If it’s the former, I’ll kill it right away.’
If it’s the latter, you’ll realize karma.
But both results are not different.
‘Even if I realize it, it’s the same as dying.’
The boy looked at the plain where the sunset fell.
‘Why didn’t they kick it out?’
Death is the same anyway.
If so, wouldn’t it make sense to kick it out?
But the boy didn’t.
‘I can not know.’
Why?
So far, I have been able to calculate all the principles of my actions.
Dig deeper and deeper into the labyrinth.
impulse.
question.
distrust.
‘The body rejected my instructions.’
I had to kick it out.
Somehow, the boy did not let Aaron go.
Orders and results were out of sync.
‘I know.’
He didn’t stop even though the end was in sight, wondering what would happen to Aaron.
The reason the boy accepted the disciple in the meantime was because he believed in the possibility of healing.
It was because he thought that if he continued his research and efforts, at least one person would overcome the disease and achieve his dream.
But it failed.
None survived.
So why didn’t you judge?
Let’s stop hiring an heir.
So, the procession to Luanan, which was active in the early days, has now completely stopped.
Occasionally, those who came were forced to kick them out.
It has been that way, with or without their performance.
at least 60 years.
After a maximum of 120 years, they are forcibly exported.
It was a carefully calculated decision.
“whim.”
muttered the boy.
Then, suddenly, he burst into laughter.
“Puha!”
Oh, that’s right.
You forgot.
I had work to do.
Then, I shouldn’t have let that guy out.
Because this is really stupid.
Have you become like him?
A hundred years have passed since then.
Aaron’s reason was completely worn out and he became like a doll.
the boy was fine
Because I didn’t have a heart.
“Did I warn you? You have to go back.”
The boy laughed and said.
Let’s see, what will be the result of fishing.
A conversation between Aaron and the boy follows.
“Master, it was because he wanted something else from me. If not, there is no point in leaving me here.”
Oh, that’s right, Aaron.
I have a reason to keep you here.
the fool continued.
“It has gotten better.”
It’s good.
It means that it doesn’t matter whether a colleague or friend dies or not.
Even so, he said that there was one thing left in Aaron’s heart.
‘It’s a win.’
A pure dream to become strong.
You have earned the qualification to master karma.
Good good.
If so, let’s continue.
said the boy.
that i can make your dreams come true
that your efforts are worth rewarding.
And Aaron thanked his teacher and closed his eyes.
“See you again, disciple.”
The boy said to the dying Aaron.
“… … .”
see you again
The boy’s expression hardened.
The words I just said didn’t come out because I wanted to.
But that expression soon disappeared.
Soon time passes.
Aaron suffered and was frustrated, but did not give up and steadily built up his karma.
The boy gave Aaron advice from time to time, and taught him how to use karma so that he could recall his full power when he looked back on his memories later.
He went outside from time to time to help Aaron grow.
The boy himself was extremely sincere.
‘because.’
The moment that guy’s dream comes true, the gates of hell will open.
No one can escape.
Unless you’re a monster like a boy.
It was the last gift.
Yes, what a boy leaves for a young man before he dies.
‘I think it’s a bit early for me to die.’
If you’re going to die anyway
If you’re going to disappear from me.
It’s okay to write in a slightly better direction.
“Right, Aaron?”
The boy was talking to himself.
Since I told you about my karma, you should repay me too.
Throw away the idea that you have to spread it unconditionally as a teacher.
‘When Aaron was completely engulfed in a dream.’
Eat up without hesitation.
By merging the two dreams into one, you can restore your disappearing existence.
this is correct
So the boy left Aaron behind.
otherwise it doesn’t make sense
‘therefore.’
The warm words I give you.
Cheerful encouragement.
It’s all lies.
‘Cause I don’t have a heart
They are monsters, not humans.
It was a pretense and an act to deceive and use him.
“I won’t be there, but remember. I have always been with you.”
All of these words were not the boy’s true intentions.
“Can I call you Master?”
Oh yeah.
call at will
Because you’re going to die for me anyway.
Aaron Delkard.
you’re really gullible
Yes, if you do the math, this is the only answer.
I’m raising my life to prolong my life, to eat you.
I don’t know anything.
Without knowing that you are being used, you trust and follow them as you please.
Even if I try to be a teacher or something, there is no inspiration.
No, I killed all the people who told me they were teachers from the beginning.
So, the moment you called me teacher, your death was predestined.
do you still not know?
Pay attention, little.
“Master, is there anything I can do to help you?”
When I said I had no heart, I should have known it would.
what do you help
“Just as Master opened the way for me, I also want to repay Master.”
The moment Aaron realizes his karma while fighting Lidigion.
The boy was digging Aaron’s grave.
In the meantime, come back and say that.
There was no laughter either.
“Master said he had no heart, but that is not true.”
I’m just talking nonsense.
“Like Master saved me, I may have something to do for Master.”
I have work to do.
The boy looked at Aaron.
He had only one thing to do for him.
‘Can you enlighten me?’
How do you mean to realize something that doesn’t exist from the beginning?
Just as you cultivated for hundreds of millions of years and still did not know nothing, the boy spent eternity but did not know the heart.
Rather, I was able to spend eternity because I did not know my heart.
‘He said he was helping me.’
The disciple believed in the master like iron stone.
He said he was a lifelong benefactor and was trying to help with his life.
It was stupid.
The boy finished his calculations.
Why didn’t you kick Aaron out?
The reason why he encouraged, supported, and realized karma until the end.
The reason why I taught and helped pretending not to win.
‘There is only one.’
The boy’s presence soon disappears.
To put the broken pieces together, you have to make new pottery and put them together.
The pottery was in front of me.
‘Oh yeah.’
everything went to waste
The efforts the boy has made so far.
The things that have been done to prevent the sacrifice of a colleague.
Things that tried to raise disciples.
Come to think of it, it is of no use to anyone.
When that guy is ripe, let’s eat it without any leftovers.
After that, I decided to do the things I had been thinking about.
‘Wasn’t the direction opposite?’
The boy wanted to know the feeling of pity, so he tried to protect and help others.
but to no avail.
What if we do the opposite here?
What if it breaks rather than protects?
Wouldn’t it be possible to know the feeling of regret if you killed and destroyed all the things you wanted to help and leave behind?
For example, Niflheim.
For example, colleagues from party 1.
For example, Moebius itself.
Somehow it doesn’t seem impossible.
If I ate that guy, things I couldn’t before become possible.
It can be liberated from annoying restrictions.
It is also possible to accumulate karma indefinitely.
If so, no one can stop the boy.
Theoretically, if you accumulate infinite karma, the power is also infinite.
Even the gods who talk about Tell cannot stop the boy.
‘It’s possible.’
Because the boy had no heart.
Because he was a monster, not a human.
‘I can only interpret it that way.’
If only one disciple survived.
If the boy showed potential.
Shouldn’t I have made that decision?
“Master.”
Aaron called the boy his teacher.
He treated him with utmost sincerity and did his best for the boy without any doubt even when he said he had no heart.
‘cooking?’
It’s stupid.
you haven’t tried it?
‘Gardening?’
The same goes for this.
I’ve tried everything I could do.
The method Aaron suggests is a simple, one-dimensional action.
‘Ah, that’s right.’
The situation turned in the boy’s favor.
There was an uproar outside Luanan.
The very existence of Mobius was at stake.
Siris left Niflheim and wandered, knowing the truth of the game and losing normal judgment.
‘If you blindly believe it, you lose your judgment when things go wrong.’
He was making strange claims such as saying that he had to forcefully send the Master to Earth to save him.
They even issued a call-up order.
Same with other members.
In a chaotic situation, I couldn’t get my bearings.
‘Was it necessary for me to protect them?’
The boy played an active part in the mission even while preparing for his own extinction.
He is dying for that.
If the result is still like this.
‘Shouldn’t have done something like a sacrifice.’
effort. courage. sacrifice. trust.
These are words that are meaningless.
The essence of the world is darkness and chaos.
Desperate efforts are frustrated in front of talent.
Courage collapses on the wall of reality, sacrifice is not recognized by anyone, and trust collapses with a single trivial opportunity.
‘I’ve been thinking that the heart is the sum total of those things.’
despair. Frustration. avarice. jealousy.
If the essence of the mind was made up of these things.
Was the boy supposed to have made a different choice?
have seen
Even the boy has been tired of watching here.
Countless times I’ve watched bone-chilling efforts shattered by random coincidences.
People in the world are all trying to take advantage of, deceive, trample and exploit others.
‘Is there a need to know something like the heart?’
If it’s going to end that way in the end.
Like the mind, the one who doesn’t feel is beneficial to living.
“… … .”
the boy intended
I deliberately left the room empty and waited for Aaron to read the contents of the summons sent by Siris.
Aaron was already suffering from the whispers of the shadows.
“I am… … I couldn’t do anything… … .”
Aaron, realizing the truth about Moebius, began to shake.
Efforts were once again betrayed.
As always.
“I learned karma! Anything will help!”
Aaron was intercepted by a boy.
No way.
Even if I went out with that kind of power, I wouldn’t be able to do anything.
“Can you win? A shadow by your side.”
So the boy suggested.
Don’t give in to the whispers of the red shadow.
In order to face adversity, he told his disciples to exert more courage and effort.
“… … I will win.”
Aaron promises.
He swore to his master that he would not lose to reality.
I once again believed in the power of hard work and will.
Everything was as the boy intended.
‘Will you win?’
You can’t beat that.
If it had been decided, no one would have died.
The boy was silent.
The fate of that young man was decided the moment he set foot here.
The boy left Luanan according to the summons.
‘… … .’
By now, in Luanan, Aaron would be spending eternity with time stopped.
I mean, overcoming the red shadow.
‘after.’
The more karma you accumulate, the better.
That way, when you eat it, the purity will be higher.
The fate of Niflheim and Moebius meant nothing to the boy anymore.
‘That’s true.’
I’m looking forward to it.
How ripe were the fruits?
“We must save his life.”
“Did you ask what Master meant?”
“You will say you will stay.”
“then… … .”
I wasn’t interested in saying that my former colleagues would save the master.
Siris looked at the boy.
“I’m sorry, Muden. It must be in bad shape.”
“Ah, do whatever you want. I won’t mind.”
That woman still wraps her head around pathetic things.
but.
‘I’ll make it eventually.’
Because it was Siris.
‘It has nothing to do with me now.’
whatever your colleagues do.
Since the boy had no heart from the beginning, the relationship with them was not established.
“Are you better than that, Mr. Myuden? Don’t overdo it… … .”
“are you okay.”
are you okay.
everything is fine
“Please take care of your body. We are aware of your condition.”
do you worry about me
The boy was fine.
Rather, he was seriously considering whether he would feel sorry for them if he killed them all.
“… … .”
Yes, I’m seriously thinking about it.
Why did I overdo it for them?
What drove you to the point where you were about to die?
‘Because I don’t want to feel sorry for you?’
no.
I can’t feel the heart of pity, but is there a need for that?
I don’t know, I don’t know.
“Siris.”
The blonde knight turned around.
Eyes stained with nervousness reflected the boy’s figure.
The boy decided to mock.
how pointless what you’re doing
How stupid, how stupid.
“Don’t stop.”
“what?”
“That is not the end.”
Siris’ eyes widened.
‘It’s ridiculous.’
The boy clicked his tongue.
That’s not what I meant.
I was trying to make fun of you, saying that everything would be lost anyway.
Your mouth moves on its own.
“If it were you, you would find a way.”
“What do you mean? Are there any alternatives?”
“Okay.”
The boy whistled and groaned.
‘You will.’
I will take the wrong choice of the present as the path toward the future.
Your colleagues will be there.
‘me?’
i don’t have
Because I will eat Aaron.
And because I decided to be free.
But really, humans are incomprehensible.
I was going to mock you, but the word of cheer goes out, and I’m hoping for success instead of ruin for these guys.
Why is the mind a tree frog?
Why does it move against the boy’s will?
I don’t know, I don’t know.
