<Aaron Side Story Episode 45>
6. Beyond Nihilism (1)
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The light on the bookshelf dimmed.
Aaron removed his raised hand.
“… … .”
I stared blankly at the open book.
The bookshelf gave off no luster.
Again, Aaron put his hand on the bookshelf.
Hoping for more hidden memories.
It won’t end like this.
He has spent eternity there.
A clue suggesting another truth may remain in that memory.
but it doesn’t shine
No matter how much I concentrated, no light came from the bookshelf.
“It is over.”
Yunet said.
Aaron’s voice rang hollow.
“Are you done?”
“yes. This is the end of the memories that Aaron spent in Luanan.”
“more… … Are you missing?”
“That’s right.”
The silver-haired witch confirmed.
End with this.
“Thank you, Aaron. Thank you for your cooperation in my work. With this, Aaron’s travelogue comes to an end. only… … .”
Yurnet’s words continued.
“I feel like I need to clear things up a bit. It seems that Aaron’s memory was confused at that time.”
“I am… … My memory… … .”
Aaron muttered.
Luanan, a special dimension where time passes slowly.
The young man met his master there and realized his karma.
However, karma is an imperfect force that accompanies mental collapse.
With the help of the teacher, the young man overcame that, obtained a complete karma, and escaped from there to join the party to save his older brother.
‘Master’s help.’
Yes.
The boy helped Aaron.
If it wasn’t for the teacher, Aaron couldn’t escape despair.
‘I fought with the red shadow.’
to keep the light of the heart.
To gain the strength to save your comrades.
but… … .
“Aaron, let me ask you one thing.”
Yunet said.
“You fought fiercely against the red shadow. It’s probably an inner hallucination in which Aaron’s desire for power is embodied. And Lord Aaron defeated the red shadow and was freed from that desire.”
Yurnet’s words continued.
“If you interpret it as a superficial story, I mean.”
“Other interpretations… … Are you saying there is?”
“Whoops. It’s not much different. It’s just that there are a few hidden facts. Therefore, Aaron.”
Yurnet’s gaze was fixed.
“Last time, who was the one you stabbed with your spear?”
“that… … .”
red shadow.
Aaron pierced his heart to free himself from his wandering thoughts.
Is it really so?
“Aaron, don’t you already know the correct answer?”
Yurnet decided.
there’s no way you wouldn’t know
If you don’t know, it’s a run to avoid the truth.
“… … .”
Aaron staggered to his feet.
All eyes were focused on those sitting in the chairs.
Like a ghost walking, it moves a few steps.
for a while too.
“It was me.”
The light went out of Aaron’s eyes.
dump.
Aaron knelt on the ground.
I hear it.
I heard it only now
“For the rest of my life, I will curse you.”
Right before he died, the voice of the shadow that cursed himself.
“You will suffer. despair Be frustrated.”
The figure of someone hidden in the red shadow is revealed.
“Take my curse with you forever.”
the moment he dies.
The moment the extinction of existence was confirmed, he was cursing Aaron.
He was praying for disaster, knowing that one day Aaron would realize the truth.
it turns out
No matter how much you hide your sins, they will eventually come out.
It is impossible to escape.
“Did I kill Master?”
Aaron spread his hands.
feel the touch
That feeling when you stab a spear.
The refreshing feeling of twisting the spear shaft and inserting the spear blade deep into the heart, absorbing existence.
‘What is my memory?’
Is it because you don’t know?
you couldn’t help it?
‘can not believe it.’
Humans are animals of self-justification.
You can hide things that are unfavorable to you.
You can fool even your own mind.
Aaron at the time might have known.
The identity of the red shadow.
But it didn’t stop knowing.
to live for yourself.
Because I wanted to live.
Maybe it was because he wanted to absorb the opponent and gain strength, so he didn’t stop even though he knew it.
After something happened, you can put a reason behind it.
It was because the teacher changed his memory and perception.
So it’s not your fault.
Can you even believe that?
In fact, what if the master didn’t touch the memory?
What if it was done by pure will?
At that time, Aaron had gone mad.
Almost devoured by the red shadow, he became more than half a ghost.
While saying that he would be eaten, killed, or become Master’s new vessel, he might have acted differently.
I can not know.
can not believe it.
can’t believe anything
“Haha.”
Aaron fell to his knees.
“nothing… … .”
I don’t know, I don’t know.
Only two things are certain.
A feeling that pierces the heart, clearly remaining in the hand.
And no matter how much I think about it, the face and name of the teacher that cannot come to mind.
<It is the death of existence itself. The fact that it existed in space. That information itself is lost.>
The therapist’s voice comes to mind.
she asked Aaron.
The teacher said it was dangerous, so he entrusted the boy’s back to himself.
<I’m not going to die right away. live for a while It will look fine to others.>
Master’s words came to mind.
The boy’s voice was mixed with a heavy noise like the sound of a machine, so it was impossible to distinguish his identity.
<It is slowly forgotten. And then it disappears altogether. The world won’t even know you existed.>
Even if it is a string of strong ties.
It becomes meaningless in the face of the disappearance of existence.
Even the promise that I will come to see you when everything is over.
Also thanks to the teacher.
Clean, clean, forgotten.
Without knowing the teacher’s name, voice, or figure.
live carelessly
‘why.’
Didn’t know anything until now
As if you were calm, have you lived a fine life?
‘After that, Master didn’t say anything.’
The boy disappeared with the words to ask for my back.
After that, I don’t know what happened.
Finally, Aaron and the group saved Han, but at that time, Aaron completely forgot about his teacher’s work.
Didn’t find it.
I lost interest.
No, I didn’t even know who it was.
“… … .”
I tried to call the boy’s name.
No words came out.
I can not know.
His name wouldn’t have been Aaron Delcurd.
He must have changed his last name in order to inherit the will of Master.
why did it happen again?
“how… … Got it?”
Aaron’s question.
Yurnet replied.
“Every time I saw you for a long time, I felt a very subtle sense of incongruity. It took more time than that to realize the identity of the sense of incongruity.”
“you are… … Do you know Master’s name?”
“We don’t know either. I can’t remember the name or the look. I only know one thing. He said he was our colleague in the past.”
There is only one reason why they are here.
It was to recover a comrade who had fallen into oblivion.
“Aaron, we need your cooperation. to get him back.”
“What kind of cooperation are you asking me to do? i killed it I, I… … .”
“okay. You killed that man.”
man’s low voice.
It was the Lydigion.
“It wasn’t just about killing it, it was completely annihilating it.”
“… … .”
“I was too. Every time I see you, I feel a strange sense of incongruity. It was hard to deal with.”
Of course.
The fake killed the real one and took its place.
“So, are you going to lie down there?”
Lydigion revealed this and said.
“Are you going to embarrass the man by lying there like garbage, denying yourself endlessly?”
“I am… … your colleague… … .”
“Killed? How is that? Is dying a big deal?”
Aaron turned around.
“After all, warriors are a race that lives to die. What matters is not death. how did you die what did you die for Did he fulfill his will and die?”
A sharp light flashed in Lydegion’s eyes.
“Only you can prove it. Only you can testify and prove the man’s life. We came here hoping for that.”
“… … .”
“Rise up, strong man.”
clap.
Lidigion stood up in his seat.
“Is your will, which has not been broken even in eternity, collapsed here?”
“I am… … .”
“Let us know. How the man lived and how she died.”
Aaron’s eyes blurred.
“Rise up, Aaron. It is not over.”
“My memory is over. There is nothing more to show, nothing more to say.”
Memories of the boy have left in the river of oblivion.
He also unlocked all the secrets hidden deep inside.
There was nothing Aaron could say.
“Your memory is over, but something remains.”
Aaron looked at Yurnet.
She held out her hand to Aaron.
“Now, take my hand.”
A small white hand reached out.
Aaron reached out his hand, but couldn’t bear to touch it.
“Wake up, Aaron.”
Siris said.
“Show us the courage of your master.”
“courage… … .”
“Let us honor the life of your teacher, who was resolute in the face of oblivion and never lost his composure even in despair.”
“If it ends here, it is a sword that is neither here nor there.”
Nihaku also added his words.
“That senior didn’t back down like this. In the most difficult times, as if nothing had happened, he was willing to walk forward.”
Didn’t back down.
under any harsh circumstances.
Could it be because you don’t have a heart?
‘no.’
Aaron remembered the end of the boy.
The back of her as she walked out as if nothing was wrong.
Even though the boy knew that he was about to disappear, he calmly advanced into the darkness without making any expression or informing anyone.
“… … .”
Now Aaron can’t remember the boy’s name.
face and voice.
I was able to barely know the fact that ‘there was such a person’.
“Maybe it’s good, me? My memory is over, and now I don’t know anything.”
“No, Aaron. His traces are still there.”
where?
Aaron looked at Yournet with bewildered eyes.
“You hold the key. So please stand up, Aaron. We need your courage.”
My hands are shaking.
does it remain
what to do
What if the worst truth is revealed?
Aaron may collapse.
Even so, Aaron grabbed Yurnet’s hand.
I endured and endured and stood up.
“What can I do?”
“Remember me.”
Yurnet laughed softly.
remember?
Aaron’s memory is over.
“It is not your memory.”
Yurnet shook her head.
“Please remember him.”
“… … !”
“There is, obviously. in Aaron’s mind. He is gone, but the traces of his dreams are not gone.”
“Is it in my mind?”
“You can do it. because… … .”
Yurnet said as if singing.
“karma is the ability to turn dreams into reality and fantasies into reality at the cost of time. Would it be possible for you? any hope. Miracles that seem impossible. So it was possible.”
“… … .”
“Only you, have made his wish come true.”
I held the hands of Aaron from Euronet.
“Now, show me. his appearance.”
“I am… … .”
“are you okay. It’s fine.”
I could feel the warmth of the hand holding it.
can i do it
Is it possible for Aaron to bring back memories that have disappeared into oblivion?
‘Master.’
Aaron’s eyes lit up.
We have to move on.
just like his master did.
Aaron politely let go of Yurnet’s hand.
Then I looked straight ahead.
All I could see were bookshelves and rows of books.
through.
The landscape began to change completely.
The appearance of a library full of books and bookshelves disappears.
Shadows swayed everywhere, covering the world with new colors.
Aaron held out his hand.
Bassrock.
Fallen leaves floating in the air were caught.
This is the scene already at that time.
Before they knew it, they were standing on a plain at sunset.
And, it looks
far away
Someone’s back was reflected.
The boy’s back was visible through the orange grass.
The Wind Blows.
Originally, it was a place where the wind did not blow.
The boy stood still as the grass was pushed and fell.
“… … .”
Lips do not move.
Only meaningless sounds linger in my mouth.
I can’t name the boy
who the boy was
How did you live and how did you die?
Aaron bit his lip hard.
The fishy taste of blood.
Pain awakens the mind.
Rescue and rescue the memories of a boy who was deeply immersed in the swamp of oblivion.
Like putting a broken jigsaw puzzle together.
So at last, Aaron called the boy by name.
Muden Nidelk.
At that moment, the door opened.
