00981 Epilogue 1. Hello, Seraph. ————————————————– ———————-=
I glanced back and saw Seraph half-rising. His red cloak is pulled together with a slightly clenched hand. However, if you pull it loosely rather than tightly, you can shake it off with just a little bit of force… .
“Are you going… ?”
It seems like it, but the voice I hear is so pathetic. I hope you don’t look at me like that. She is like a pitiful woman who sees her husband heartlessly leaving without even spending a night with her.
I put my hands in my pockets for no reason. I fiddled with the zero code in my hand. Just as I was not even sure what to say, Seraph opened his mouth.
“I would like to talk more with Su-hyeon.”
“story?”
“Isn’t it a bit too much to just say what you have to say and listen only to what you hear?”
“What, what.”
The angel expressed his beliefs without hesitation, which was unusual for him. But he soon calms down and stares at Seraph, whose eyes shine as if he is longing for something.
… Now that I think about it, this might be my last meeting with Seraph. Because next time we meet, we can use code zero. This may be our only chance to talk freely. I think that’s probably why it’s like that… . Should I agree or not?
“… … .”
Actually, the feelings I get while watching Seraph these days are quite subtle. Even I don’t know if I like it or not. Should I say that no clear standards have been set?
Looking back, when did it start? Was it when I found out that Seraph had borrowed Ansol’s body, or rather, followed me back for the first time?
Anyway, the only thing I am sure about after that is that the hateful hatred that was like in the past has seemingly disappeared. Okay, that’s it.
“Come to think of it.”
As he spoke while slowly pulling off his cloak, Seraph slightly raised his eyes and stood up completely from the altar.
“I also had something else I wanted to ask.”
At that moment, “Just for a moment, an hour, even thirty minutes…” !” Seraph, who belatedly shouted, looked dumbfounded as she sat back down at the altar.
“why? “It’s okay to stay a little longer.”
Opening his eyes round, he took out a piece of tobacco and took a bite of it. Then, he narrowed his eyes and calmly sat down on the altar. However, it was clear that the two eyes were looking in completely different directions and the lower lip was sticking out tightly. I think this is my first time seeing Seraph sulking. It’s pretty cute.
“Are you upset?”
“I’m not upset.”
“Hey, beep… . okay. “But what did you want to talk about when you caught me?”
“… … .”
Seraph, who spoke in a slightly angry voice, sighed heavily for a while.
After a moment of silence, Seraph, who had a disapproving look on her face, glanced at me sternly. Soon, the corners of his mouth went up slightly.
“Actually, I have been observing Su-hyeon’s movements occasionally recently.”
“what?”
“It seemed like he was having a lot of fun with many women.”
“… saw?”
Seraph nodded slowly. Umm. I feel hot energy coming up. But I’m like, ‘So?’ I worked hard to manage my facial expressions so that the meaning could be conveyed.
“If you were hoping that I would be embarrassed, you would be mistaken.”
“Is that so? “I’m not that childish.”
Suddenly a long yawn came out. Maybe it’s because it’s night. That’s strange. Since I woke up late, I guess I wasn’t lacking in sleep.
At that time, Seraph spoke.
“only… .”
“only?”
“I was jealous.”
“Ha, I have something to envy.”
As he spoke while chewing tobacco, light laughter followed. hmm. It seems like it’s been a long time since I talked to Seraph like this. Making jokes isn’t as bad as you think.
“So, Soohyun.”
Soon, Seraph, who had been sneaking closer to me, whispered softly in my ear.
“Could you please do me a favor?”
“Listen.”
I muttered as I lit fire to the tobacco I was chewing.
In that split second, my vision suddenly slipped. I closed my eyes once, opened them, and stepped on the gray ceiling. Below, Seraph is looking down at me with his head half-bowed. At the same time, I could feel a soft sensation comfortably supporting the back of my neck.
A knee pillow. My guess is that Seraph probably wants to see me embarrassed in some way.
“Is this a favor?”
I asked, but Seraph shook her head. And without saying a word, he moves his hands and begins to calmly comb my hair. Slowly, very slowly, without stopping… . I also had no reason to refuse now, so I quietly submitted myself to him.
“Umm… .”
The gray altar was cold, but Seraph’s touch was warmer than that. I feel good. As his head relaxes, his body also becomes tingly and his eyes close of their own accord. It feels like lying down in the warm sunlight in a fresh spring meadow.
In this state, how much time has passed?
“Su-hyun.”
Suddenly, Seraph spoke. I compromised by half-closing my eyes, which were meant to be completely closed, and stared at Seraph. Maybe it’s because my field of vision has narrowed, but it seems a little more blurry than before.
“Suhyeon… . What was life like at Hall Plain?”
“… … ?”
It was an unexpected, yet new question. I was about to ask her what she was talking about, but I swallowed her words. Maybe this answer is the request Seraph said.
“well… .”
I was lost in thought, muttering to myself.
In the past, I would have said something negative without even thinking about it. Of course, you can still say that now.
If you just think about it seriously, it doesn’t mean that there isn’t room to say it differently.
“It was unfortunate, but… .”
I was unhappy when I witnessed my brother’s death. She had to go through hardships she didn’t have to go through, had to watch the death of her colleague, and the memories of confirming the corruption of the woman she admired are so much that she doesn’t want to recall them even now. Aside from this, countless other unfortunate memories were widespread.
But was it unfortunate that I was always unhappy as a user?
“I have good memories… .”
Strictly speaking, that wasn’t the case. When I met her brother, when I was saved by Soyoung Han, when I met Gehenna, when Mar and Suna were born, when my colleagues came to save me… . The memories of that time clearly do not fall into the category of misfortune. There are too many of these to count.
While I was calmly organizing my thoughts, I felt a tickling sensation on my face. Subtly shining silver hair flows down like raindrops. Seraph’s face seems to be gradually tilting.
But why… . You can’t see it in more detail than before, right? My vision became quite unclear. It feels like my eyelids have become heavier without me even realizing it.
“You don’t have to forget the past, but you don’t have to be tied to it either.”
I opened my eyes for a moment, but then closed them a little longer. I don’t know why, but it was because the feeling of her whole body being gently caressed wasn’t bad at all. Rather, I feel like I just want to fall asleep like this.
“So wouldn’t it be better for Soo-hyeon to live happily now?”
A soft voice flowed like a lullaby.
“That’s it… .”
Of course. Who wouldn’t want to live happily?
Seraph continues.
“Then what kind of happy life is it for Su-hyeon?”
At that moment, I was completely speechless.
“… … .”
This was the problem.
People have different priorities depending on the individual. Therefore, what he defines as happiness is bound to be different. Same goes for me.
“It’s happiness… .”
The happy life that ordinary people pursue and the life that I feel happy are very different from each other. Can we truly say that a life in which one can feel the meaning of life by constantly killing and slaughtering is truly happy? Even if I say I am satisfied with myself, the eyes of people around me, such as my brother and Han So-young… ?
Was it at the Temple of Promise?
‘Is the unknown the result of looking away? It’s truly a pity that I felt fearful of the future when choices would come. Even though the moment I had been dreaming of for fifteen years was finally upon me… .’
‘Well, if the poison that helped me survive is gone, what’s left may be mental wear and tear. Then you are already falling apart beautifully… .’
Zero Code’s words resonated with me painfully.
At some point, I started fooling myself about my emotions. Among them, what I was most wary of were the emotions that correspond to sadness and pain. Because crying because you can’t overcome pain is considered weak.
I wanted to become stronger than anyone else for revenge. When I was tired and wanted to cry, I gritted my teeth and held back the tears. When I felt like I couldn’t bear it, I replaced it with anger. As a result of continuing to lie to myself about my emotions, my tear ducts completely dried up.
… In the end, all that remains is emptiness and futility.
“maybe… .”
That was why.
So I wanted to cry. Rather than laughing, I wanted to cry.
You can smile sincerely when you are happy, but you cannot smile sincerely when you are unhappy.
But crying is not limited to just sad situations. It is possible even when you are happy. Aren’t there many cases where you cry because you’re too happy or because you can’t get over your emotions?
okay. In other words, a life where you can cry when you want to cry.
If we go a little further.
“Living like a human… . That kind of life… ?”
“… Is that so.”
As I barely finished answering, I suddenly felt that something that had been disturbing my eyes was slowly moving away. It seems that Seraph has raised his head… .
“All right.”
weird.
“If Soo-hyeon really wants to do that.”
I tried to get up, but I had no strength in my whole body.
“I will gladly respect Su-hyeon’s sincerity.”
On the contrary, it felt like my body was going limp.
It was only then that I realized that I was on the verge of losing my mind. No, I can’t. There’s still something I want to ask.
“I’m just saying this now… .”
It was that moment.
“I swore in front of the zero code five years ago before the regression.”
Suddenly, my vision rapidly darkened, and the vague shape of the Seraph completely disappeared.
“I think now is the time to fulfill that pledge.”
Seraph?
‘Please listen and do not misunderstand. As I said before, user Kim Soo-hyun currently holds a significant amount of GP. ‘Getting rid of this as is is not a reasonable action at all.’
“Please listen and do not misunderstand. First of all, I understand what Soohyun wants and her desire to return to Earth. But I can assure you that it can never be considered reasonable to leave things like this without any measures in place.”
Seraph? What are you saying now?
‘It’s incredible, but your will caused the Zero Code to react. great. With the helper’s authority, we will adjust the details arbitrarily. Of course, there will be no harm to user Kim Soo-hyun, not even a fingernail. Well then, I’ll finish the work and see you soon.’
“Suhyeon… . With the helper’s authority… . To make a random request… . Of course, no harm will come to Su-hyeon… .”
Damn, I can’t hear very well. No matter how hard I try to concentrate, my consciousness becomes blurred by the minute.
“Then after the work is finished… .”
That was the last thing I could hear.
“Seeing you again… .”
It was Seraph’s voice speaking in a slightly wet voice.
“It might be difficult… ?”
At the same time, I lost the string of consciousness that I was holding on to.
—————————= Review of the work ——————– ——-=
Kim Soo-hyun: Perhaps, a life where you can cry… ?
Seraph: Then cry.
Kim Soohyun : ?
Seraph: Prove your innocence by crying! You galvo!
fantasy,
