Episode 985.
When I put it down, I saw the sky (2)
“….”
An awkward silence arose around the two brothers who sat with the tea cups in between.
Mo Yong-gun, who used to use a heated tone in front of public ambassadors, could not easily keep his mouth shut in front of his younger brother when he met him again.
We had already talked a lot through letters, so it wasn’t necessarily awkward. However, the heavy atmosphere was entirely Moyonggun’s own problem.
He ran ahead without hesitation to achieve what he wanted and his dreams, suddenly came to an epiphany, left everything behind, and went out to create his own world.
Even the world he created was not due to personal greed. It was to help win the war for this world.
In other words, he is doing this because he does not know how Mo Yong-woo will view his actions, which would not be strange even if they were transformation.
Of course, we met a few times before leaving, but considering the time we spent apart, it was bound to be awkward.
Still, it was Moyong who spoke first.
“How have you been?”
“yes. “I’m glad to see you look healthy too.”
In fact, Mo Yong-woo could not help but feel awkward in his own way.
He knew very well how hard Prince Moyong worked to become the Murim lord. In the process, there were great moral problems, so they tried to prevent him from becoming a leader along with Yeon Ho-jeong, but in any case, Mo Yong-gun’s dream was to become a Murim lord.
Also, even if I had made up my mind differently, there is no way I wouldn’t have regrets. Mo Yong-woo was confident that although he had no regrets about his choice, he would not have any regrets.
In that situation, he became a candidate for the Murim Lord.
The person who became the head of the Moyong family and wanted to change the family became a candidate for the leader, and the person who wanted to become the leader over the family gave up everything and went down to the south of the Yangtze River to form a new power.
‘Fate is truly….’
Mo Yong-woo sighed inwardly.
Prince Moyong failed to become a leader. However, I am glad that I got what I wanted in the end.
However, Prince Mo Yong gave up his dream and worked for the world.
There is a younger brother who became a candidate for the next leader in front of a person who would have lingering regrets in front of such a person.
Of course it was bound to be awkward.
Mo Yong-gun, who was quietly examining Mo Yong-woo’s face, chuckled.
“Do you want to be the head of the family or the leader?”
Mo Yong-woo’s eyes wavered.
“I…”
“Yes.”
“….”
“You b*stard, why are you so stiff as if you were caught doing something bad? “Was it so awkward between us that we couldn’t even ask this question?”
“I…”
“I heard that you and several later indexes have become leading candidates.”
Prince Moyong sipped his tea and continued speaking.
“Not everyone who wanted that position could have been a candidate. “You may have been able to become candidates because of the will of the public ambassadors and the military.”
“….”
“In my view, public ambassadors pursue the minimum. We are operating at the bare minimum. In other words, I am thinking of leaving with a clean slate after laying the foundation for future generations.”
Mo Yong-woo could not help but agree with Mo Yong-gun’s words.
That’s how he saw it, and even the public ambassador himself said so.
Others say that Ambassador Gong is the first leader of the Murim Alliance, but Ambassador Gong himself says that he is not the first leader but a temporary leader.
Such a statement itself shakes the power of the leader. Even the public ambassador knew that.
Nevertheless, maintaining one’s attitude until the end suggests that the expectations placed on future generations are high, and at the same time, one is willing to sacrifice one’s life for future generations.
“Sacrificing oneself for the next great leader is a great thing in its own way. “It’s not something anyone can do.”
“I think so too.”
“In other words, the very fact that a person without greed wants to climb to a leader position that he does not want to climb and lay a foundation for it shows his quiet will to give powerful power to this great leader.”
I had never thought about it until then.
Mo Yong-woo said, thinking that it was definitely different.
“But if it continues like this, my mind may be shaken.”
I shake off the awkwardness and ask out of pure curiosity.
Moyong grinned.
“I heard the atmosphere in the group has been noisy these days. “You probably didn’t hear it when you came in today from a mission.”
“…?”
“I think I now understand why the military ignored this situation.”
“yes?”
“So what do you think?”
It was Prince Moyong who turned his words like a sword.
Mo Yong-woo, who was quietly looking at Mo Yong-gun, soon spoke as if he had made up his mind.
“I’m going to try seriously.”
“….”
There is no detailed explanation. Speak concisely and only express your thoughts.
Prince Moyong nodded without saying a word.
Mo Yong-woo also closed his mouth after saying those words. I didn’t even drink tea. I just looked at Moyong’s complexion.
How long has it been?
“Do you know what I thought when I first heard that you were the leader candidate?”
“I can’t even guess. “I just think he was angry.”
“Yes, I was angry.”
“…yes.”
Prince Moyong shook his head.
“You seem to think that I am jealous and angry because I immediately gave up my leadership position and my younger brother became the leader candidate, but that is not true.”
“….”
“I was angry at myself.”
“yes?”
Moyong-gun buried his back in the chair and looked up at the ceiling.
I didn’t know whether I wanted to look at the ceiling or the sky beyond.
“There is a saying that only when you let go of your greed will you find what you want.”
“….”
“Isn’t that truly absurd? Working hard to get what you want means that greed becomes the driving force that drives you, but what if you can’t let go of greed, you can’t achieve your goal? “What kind of absurd pun is this?”
“….”
“I didn’t acknowledge that. I couldn’t admit it. “If the person who gives up his greed and seeks a different path finally receives what he wanted, is this not heaven trying to deceive people?”
Mo Yong-woo nodded without saying a word.
Moyong-gun smiled.
“So I didn’t believe it. And I proved it. I wanted to become the head of a family, and in the process, I took on all kinds of bad karma. In the end, I became the head of the family.”
“….”
“But I couldn’t become the leader.”
“….”
“Maybe even if I tried as hard as I did, I wouldn’t have become a leader. Rather, it would have been more likely that he was counterattacked by political opponents and buried in the martial arts forest.”
Mo Yong-gun lowered his gaze to Mo Yong-woo.
“What’s surprising is that I never even thought about that possibility until I let go of my greed.”
“….”
“Even though I’m not the best person in the world, I’m not someone who gets called stupid. However, I was ignoring and excluding things that even young people who don’t know about the world would know about.”
“….”
“Do you know why?”
“I do not know.”
“Because the direction of my efforts was wrong.”
Mo Yong-woo’s eyes wavered.
I’m not saying you shouldn’t be greedy, but the direction of your efforts is wrong.
It was a sound that would never have come out of Moyong’s mouth. I felt it a lot before, but I never imagined that my brother would change this much.
“There is no law that says only virtuous people can become leaders. Rather, in times like these, I think it would be better to have an iron-blooded leader who can show a strong and sometimes ruthless side. “If it is an unavoidable situation… we need someone capable of leading the world, even if it means making some sacrifices.”
“….”
“But I entered in the opposite direction. Beyond being heartless, he tried to become a leader by accumulating petty and vicious acts. What happens after you become a leader? I wanted to be a good person. “I wanted to lead everyone and change the world.”
“…!”
Mo Yong-woo swallowed his saliva without realizing it.
Prince Moyong sighed.
“If we limit ourselves to achieving a goal, there will definitely be someone who can reach the top with my method. “But for me it wasn’t the right way.”
“….”
“So I felt angry at myself. “I couldn’t bear the fact that this guy who had risked his life for his once-in-a-lifetime goal ended up making decisions that took him further and further away from the starting line day after day.”
“…I see.”
“I still hate the saying that you can achieve something only if you give up your greed. I don’t think that’s correct. “I think that statement is closer to the self-justification of those who tried to reach an unreachable place, whose efforts were directed in the wrong direction, or who did not try properly.”
“….”
“I was defeated. However, I will not use defeat as an excuse to make excuses or criticize myself by saying that I had no choice and that the world is not ready to accept me. “I don’t deserve it.”
Mo Yong smiled bitterly.
“In the end, I had no choice but to stray from my goal because I was wrong. “When I heard that you had become a leader candidate, I completely realized my mistake.”
“older brother.”
“Congratulations.”
“…!”
“I was angry at myself, but when I think of you, I feel like it’s okay.”
Mo Yong-woo’s eyes wavered. This is because he did not know that Prince Moyong would support him.
“You are a capable person. A person full of talent. However, he was unable to fully display his talents and wasted his time at the Zhejiang branch. “It was I and Mo Yong-se who made you like that.”
“older brother.”
“You want to change your family home? That’s good too. But I don’t think it’s a bad idea to aim for the Murim lord. Rather, for you who have not been able to carry out your intentions with patience for a long time, isn’t this an opportunity to resolve your resentment and soar higher?”
At that moment, Mo Yong-woo felt something that had been blocked in his chest completely break.
‘one.’
Was there a grudge?
Was there a feeling of regret and frustration in my heart for not being able to unfold my weapons to the world?
Mo Yong-woo honestly looked at himself.
The answer came right away.
‘there is.’
He had a grudge.
He joined the Murim Alliance, received the support of Mo Yong’s army, and became the leader of the Tang Ma Army’s Uijeong Army, leading the strongest military unit of the Murim Alliance.
That alone was a good experience. No, I was able to feel a new world beyond my experience.
Thanks to this, I made many comrades and found ways to better myself.
‘Was it not enough?’
He told Yeon Ho-jeong that he would never become a leader and that he had neither the ability nor the desire to do so.
Those words were sincere. He truly thought he was not suitable for the position. I didn’t think I was capable.
however.
As time passed, he met many people, and his perspective on the world changed, a seed of desire grew in Mo Yong-woo’s heart.
‘I want to try it.’
A desire to become a Murim lord?
there is. To be precise, his desire was not limited to becoming a Murim lord.
I want to try everything.
As a swordsman born in the martial arts world, I want to live countless lives that I have never experienced before, including becoming a martial arts lord.
I want to enjoy responsible freedom every day until the end of my life.
Mo Yong-gun smiled bitterly as he looked at Mo Yong-woo, who was looking at the ceiling with blank eyes.
“I didn’t have the right desires like you. But you woke up right, so that’s enough. “I will find my own way, so shouldn’t you find your own way too?”
“….”
“Haha, you can’t even change the nature that is in your blood. “There’s nothing you can do about it, Mr. Moyong.”
