00947 If You Change, One. ————————————————– ———————-=
When I first came to my senses, my waist, which had been moving mechanically, had suddenly stopped. To be more precise, Soyoung Han was looking at me from less than a meter away. With very heartbroken eyes.
What would it have been like for me to grab Lilith’s buttocks and focus on the crown? It was probably disgustingly ugly. I couldn’t bear to see Han So-young broken in the first episode, and of course she felt the same way.
okay. It certainly must have been so.
… I thought so.
As I watched Soyoung Han treat me, I felt something was different.
The face staring at me with an indescribable face was completely different from the one that used to just cry.
I heard thank you and I also heard sorry. After that, she continued to talk sweetly, but she at least conveyed her desire to comfort me. Thanks to her, she managed to calm her chaotic inner self.
When I lay down with my thighs on my back, my body, which had been pushed to its limit, instantly became drowsy, as if I had covered myself with a soft blanket.
The fact that I began to talk about the first episode with ease was probably a result of my gradual relaxation in mind and body. I felt like Han So-young, who was looking at me and listening to me right now, would understand anything.
Starting from when I entered Hall Plain fifteen years ago,
Meeting my brother and losing my brother,
After meeting Han So-young and losing Han So-young,
In the end, he defeats the devil and obtains the Zero Code.
“… So she decided to become a man. “She can’t go back to Earth alone.”
“I will change the dark past, even if it means repeating it for ten years.”
“This time, I will definitely not let my brother and the clan lord die.”
“therefore… . The man requested a zero code and turned back time. “In other words, we started again from scratch.”
As soon as I finished the long story, I suddenly felt like time had stopped. At the same time, her calm heart suddenly begins to pound.
I’m curious about Soyoung Han’s reaction. What kind of expression does she make? Or what would she say?
no. Will you really believe me?
“That man was the Mercenary Lord.”
As many thoughts became complicated and tangled, my eyes, which had been focused on one place throughout the conversation, automatically returned to the voice flowing quietly.
Unexpectedly, Soyoung Han was very calm. She was looking down at me with an expressionless face.
“You’ve finally told me.”
huh?
“It would have been better if you had told me about it sooner.”
“believe… . Are you giving it to me?”
Soyoung Han nodded without a moment of hesitation.
“yes.”
It’s surprising. No matter how extra-sensory I was, I never thought I would accept it this easily. Moreover, my brother was confused at first, but finally admitted it after using the Truth Crystal.
“I probably would have believed you if you had told me when we first met.”
However, Han So-young smiled a faint smile that could not be seen as being sincere. She gently tilts her chin and looks up at her ceiling.
“Of course it took some time… . I felt it from the first time I met her. I still remember her vividly. Unexplainable special emotions that can only be felt by Mercenary Lord, different from other users… .”
After saying that, he lowered his head again and looked at me with deep eyes.
“is it so. I think I understand now. “I think I understand now.”
“ah… .”
“I was that kind of person to the Mercenary Lord.”
“under… . haha… .”
At that moment, I was suddenly speechless and just laughed. But even when she heard it herself, it was a laugh that was extremely awkward.
I don’t know. I’ve been feeling strange for a while now and it doesn’t go away. Anyway, I thought you would ask me at least once.
“How do you feel?”
“yes?”
“I don’t know if I’m the first or the second… . “I wonder how you feel when you tell me this.”
“… … .”
Now, he even asks me how I feel.
Anyway, I feel like it. well.
“I do not know.”
I said it without thinking.
“Are you happy?”
I shook my head at the following question. It’s a situation, and to be honest, I don’t think I’m particularly happy about it. I’m just dumbfounded because Han So-young’s reaction exceeded my expectations. On the one hand, she didn’t feel sad at all.
“So are you sad?”
This time I shook my head again. For something so sad, it feels too comfortable. Is it accurate to say that I just let it go?
“Do you want to laugh?”
Shaking my head.
“So do you want to cry?”
At that time, my head, which had been constantly shaking, suddenly stopped.
I quietly pondered the words.
Do you want to cry… .
“… … .”
The longer the silence lasted, the more intense the glare became, so I turned my head halfway and deliberately avoided eye contact.
I don’t know why Soyoung Han suddenly asks this question. But one thing is clear: I just couldn’t say no for sure.
“I do not know.”
… Even though I said that, I actually wanted to cry. It wasn’t that she wanted to cry in this situation, it was something she had thought about from time to time. I sincerely want to shed tears, if only once.
‘is it… .’
‘Are you already falling apart beautifully…? .’
The conversation I had with Zero Code here was painfully relatable.
In fact, I secretly felt it long before I started this episode. Some emotions are slowly becoming dull, like clothes getting wet in a light rain.
You can’t be truly happy, and you can’t be truly sad.
I can’t laugh purely, I can’t cry purely.
It has become awkward to even express emotions arbitrarily unless it is a really provocative situation.
Should I say that it is a kind of longing to get it back in the end? There was a time when I was full of emotions.
Now that I think about it, when was the last time I cried? Hasn’t there been one since Han So-young died? So that means she hasn’t cried in almost ten years. Maybe my tear ducts dried up during that time.
Han So-young continued.
“Do you want to cry?”
“… “How should I cry?”
“yes?”
“No, it’s nothing. How do you feel about Istantel Low Road?”
I know it was cowardly, but I ended up changing the topic. I don’t know Han Soyoung’s intentions, but she didn’t want to talk any more anyway.
“hmm… . Me.”
A sound of regret could be heard clicking one’s tongue, but Han So-young didn’t seem to have any intention of delving any further.
“I really want to hug you.”
“yes?”
In an instant, a rebuttal came out. As she turned her eyes, Han So-young caught her eye again. Her face, coming into view, was more strange than ever.
no. It’s different from usual.
The moment I thought that, my twilight lips moved once more.
“I want to kiss you.”
Without realizing it, I raised my upper body and scratched my head reflexively.
“haha. I feel like a puppy getting caught in the rain. But there’s no need for her to feel so sorry… .”
“Merchionary Road.”
However, a slightly angry voice cut me off as if it wasn’t worth hearing any more. My heart aches. As I slowly raised my eyes, I saw Han So-young looking at me with a mixture of disappointment and sorrow in her eyes.
“That’s not it… . “You know.”
Am I mistaken if those words sounded like I was asking you to stop ignoring me?
no way.
“I’ve waited so long. “It’s not like you don’t know.”
It wasn’t an illusion. In fact, just thinking about the word “ignorance” is no different from admitting it.
“You said that last time. I’m not saying I love you. “It’s something I admire.”
That is to say.
“At that time, I didn’t understand anything the Mercenary Lord said. Even though she felt it was sincere, she just dismissed it as an excuse to avoid the situation. … But now I understand. no. “I understand.”
Han So-young can’t do that, Han So-young shouldn’t do that.
“I guess I was definitely the object of admiration in the first episode. is it so. “That could be possible.”
The only sanctuary of my heart that I always thought of as such.
“But I think my present self is being overshadowed by my past self… . “I can’t stand it anymore, my heart hurts like I’m going to die.”
They enter the sanctuary head on.
“therefore.”
Not anyone else,
“No more, let me get out of the past.”
Han So-young herself.
A word from a woman asking us to see ourselves as we are now.
That one word took my breath away.
Nevertheless, as I hesitated, something I had been holding in until now seemed to have exploded, and Han So-young pushed me with unprecedented rapidity.
“It’s not strange. It’s not strange. This is a man who silently protected me for fifteen long years without saying a word. Is it so strange that her woman falls for this guy when she finally learns the truth? yes?”
no. It’s not strange. It’s not strange at all.
“Or is it still me and it doesn’t work?”
no. It’s not because it’s Han So-young. No, you are right. Until now, even though I knew about it, I just avoided it at all costs. Even though I thought I couldn’t do it, I might have been enjoying it deep down. that’s right. I was a coward.
I have to say something like this, like this. Why does my mouth just squirm?
“It’s not that you don’t like me. “You did that because you didn’t hate it.”
And why is he slowly taking a step back? What are you afraid of?
“Don’t go…” . please… .”
My throat feels like it’s blocked. I feel like I want to shove my fist down his throat.
It was then.
“Huh… !”
Han So-young suddenly let out a boiling groan and stood up, gritting her teeth.
Clang, clank, clank, clank!
Clang, clank, clank, clank!
Then he started chewing his lips and shaking his arms nervously. With her resentful eyes, she is glaring at the chains tied to her wrists and shaking them frantically as if she is trying to break them somehow.
“Hey, Istantel Low Road!”
At that moment, I hurried to get closer because I felt like my wrist would be cut off if I did something wrong.
“stop… ?”
Suddenly, Soyoung Han turned her head with a force that made her neck feel like it was going to break. The two black crystals, completely torn apart, are burning hotly as if they are craving something. Even without her saying it out loud, those who saw her felt an intense magical power that they could not shake off. Her mind was painted pure white.
“no… . “Huh?”
“I’m alone… . “Are you mistaken?”
That fleeting moment.
“ah… .”
My left foot took a step forward. Next, the right foot took a step forward.
Even though I try to walk, my legs don’t listen.
It felt quite different from Lilith. It’s completely opposite. Reason stays still, but instinct wants the woman in front of him. It’s as if the unconsciousness inside me couldn’t take it any longer and came out and forcibly dragged me away.
Since they were not even a meter apart to begin with, the distance narrowed in an instant.
As I took a step closer, my eyes caught sight of my heaving chest, the deep neckline, my fluttering eyelids, and my still-bitten lips.
And when it finally got close to the nose, the sad eyes slowly narrowed and slowly closed.
Han Soyoung slightly stuck out her chin.
I stopped approaching there.
Unless you’re an idiot, you know what the other person wants.
“eww… .”
But is this really okay? Am I simply being swayed by the atmosphere and doing something I cannot take responsibility for?
If so, you should stop here.
Because Han So-young, Han So-young… .
It was that moment.
Suddenly, red lips filled my vision. So much so that the teeth marks on my lower lip were clearly visible.
That near miss moment,
I closed my eyes without realizing it,
The face is slightly pushed out,
The scent of a mature adult fills my nostrils,
When my lips touched a touch so hot it felt like they were melting,
“… … !”
It happened almost simultaneously.
—————————= Review of the work ——————– ——-=
We will only retrieve the flag with Han So-young and enter the final stage of Episode 1.
Thank you for always reading. _(__)_
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Added (09:28)
It seems that some people misunderstand the review, but the H scene with Han So-young is scheduled to be narrated after the final stage (war) is over, that is, in the finale of Episode 1, with the purpose of reversing the dark atmosphere so far. Here, what I literally meant was that I would only write about retrieving the flag, that is, only the part where we confirm each other’s feelings. As you can see from today’s content, it is almost finished. The final stage will begin in the next episode at the latest. ^^;
fantasy,
