00336 Ansol’s past %26 Before the Storm —————————————— ——————————-=
“oh… ! My brother is saving me. Hehehe.”
Perhaps because he had asked her to have a drink in advance, Anhyeon nodded willingly. I said, “Hahaha! My brother chose me! “Are you watching? Lee Yu-jeong?” I punched the side of the guy who was talking and then walked away to get as far away from the festival site as possible.
Eventually, I moved to a place as dark as possible and calmed down. I don’t know what exactly happened, but An Hyun and An Sol are very reluctant to mention it. The key then was how to get Ahn Hyeon to open his mouth.
I think I walked for about 2 minutes. The night is already deep, and I can still hear Anhyun humming behind me. I looked around roughly and stopped near the garden pond. Perhaps because the moonlight was shining brightly, the light was dispelling the cloudy darkness and bouncing off the surface of the small pond in a silvery white color.
“oh. Are you doing it here? But why did we come here… .”
Anhyeon sat down with a smile and looked around with a very red face. She was shocked for a moment, then wrapped her arms around herself and cried out.
“brother. no way… ?!”
“?”
“Tongue, bro. If you do this, you will be in trouble. ah… . no. If it’s my brother… . Maybe it’s okay… .”
“Just add one word. “I’ll force you to sober up.”
I growled and threw the bottle I was holding in my right hand. Ahn Hyun giggled and waved his hand, and although he was at a fairly close range, he accurately caught the flying bottle. After a little inner exclamation, I uncorked the bottle in my left hand.
“First, a toast.”
“yes! “But are you drinking it from the bottle?”
I nodded quietly.
Eventually, I heard the sound of bottles hitting each other, and I took the first sip. As the cold liquid gently slid down my throat, my slightly excited mood subsided and I felt relieved. After savoring the refreshing taste that remained in my mouth for a moment, I glanced ahead. In front, I saw Ahn Hyeon, slightly turning his head and drinking politely from a bottle.
“card. It’s not harsh, but this is good in its own way, right? “It feels good in my throat and I feel like my mind is buzzing.”
“Then shall we have another drink?”
Ahn Hyeon nodded with a look that asked if he had any doubts. I was planning to wait for the medicine to take some effect. The guy was already as drunk as he could get. Therefore, it was necessary to awaken the mind enough to at least think normally.
After that, I deliberately didn’t say anything. I just stayed silent, agreed to what Anhyeon was talking about, and drank the liquid for no reason.
And when I emptied about half the bottle, I felt that the gun’s dull eyes returned to focus, and my slurred pronunciation was slowly becoming clearer. At this point, I thought it was time to bring up the story, so I took out a piece of tobacco from my pocket and asked. Perhaps because he felt awkward about me remaining silent, Ahn Hyeon’s voice, which had been chatting a while ago, was gradually quieting down.
It was about time to light the candle with a kindling stone.
“brother. Is there anything you want to say to me… ? “You haven’t said anything since a while ago.”
Anhyeon’s tone was much more subdued than before. Thinking that the medicinal effect had spread to some extent, I calmly nodded. Then, he placed the lit tobacco between his index and middle fingers and opened his mouth in a low voice.
“okay. There is something I want to ask you. That’s why I purposely prepared this place. “I have a question about Ansol.”
“aha. I see Hey, ask me anything, bro. If you were my brother, I would know everything about Sol… .”
“Ahn Hyeon. I’m not here to make jokes. “I’m asking about Ansol’s past and spirit.”
Then, Ahn Hyeon kept his mouth shut as if he was lying. I glanced up and looked at his face. Ahn Hyeon was showing a very perplexed expression, as if the joyous expression he had shown at the unity meeting had disappeared. In the past, she wouldn’t have bothered to ask. But I thought that I could never back down this time, so I strengthened my voice even more.
“You’re the only one I can ask. So, I hope you can tell me clearly. “You know what I’m talking about, right?”
“… … .”
Suddenly a cold wind passes by.
For a while, Anhyeon didn’t say anything. He just kept his mouth shut and stared at the ground with blank eyes. However, his eyelids were trembling slightly and his closed lips were chewing slightly.
How much time has passed? Anhyeon suddenly smiled. But it was a laugh that clearly seemed forced.
“under… . haha. My brother too. Hey, I told you. sorry. Even if you are my brother, that is a bit difficult. There is a thing called personal privacy. Please respect me. ha ha ha.”
“Ahn Hyeon.”
“… brother. Wouldn’t it be better if I told you later? Why now… . please. Please give me some time to think too. “I want to clear my mind and enjoy this good atmosphere more.”
Anhyun’s tone now took on a pleading tone. I really felt like I didn’t want to talk about it, but I decided to go ahead with my original intention. In that case, from now on, you have to persuade the guy in front of you.
I gently closed my eyes. Then, after calmly compiling my thoughts, I opened my eyes again and opened my mouth.
“Hyuna.”
At that moment, Ahn Hyun stopped speaking again. Then his eyes widened, and then he gently opened his mouth and looked at me. There was an expression of surprise in the guy’s eyes.
To this day, I rarely call my children, or even my clan members, by their first names. I almost called him by his last name. It was to create my own wall and distance myself. Perhaps people around me also vaguely felt it. It was so bad that Jeong Ha-yeon asked only to be called by her first name. But this time, I broke down that wall myself.
To Ahn Hyeon, who looked like she didn’t know what to do, I spoke softly.
“Today I… . no. “I don’t think there will be a chance if it isn’t now.”
“brother… . please… .”
“What on earth are you so afraid of? Hiding it like this doesn’t solve everything.”
“But, bro. But… .”
“Hyuna. Do you remember what I said before? Don’t be afraid. Overcome that fear and look straight at the cause of your fear. “Only then will you be able to survive and adapt to this world called Hol Plain.”
Is it rare for me to say this earnestly? As if he felt it, a look of conflict flashed across Ahn Hyun’s face. The guy’s face clearly revealed his current worries and complicated feelings. I’m sure my intention was conveyed. However, in the end, Anhyeon’s answer was to bow his head. Soon, a small voice saying “I’m sorry” flowed into my ears.
As expected, it seemed like this wasn’t enough to break down Anhyeon’s wall. I sighed heavily.
The atmosphere, which had been fun just 5 minutes ago, suddenly changed drastically. The cheerful and exciting atmosphere quickly disappears, replaced by an air of discomfort and silence. The quiet state of silence continued.
I savored my appetite and opened my mouth again.
“Not long ago, something very serious almost happened to Ansol. you know that?”
Anhyun nodded and immediately shook his head left and right. He probably guessed the general idea from Ansol’s reaction, but he doesn’t seem to know the details. As for her guardian, it would be difficult for her to talk about her carelessly, so she probably didn’t say anything in detail.
“If we leave Ansol here, it’s going to get really, really difficult. This isn’t just about adaptation. In the future, the hole plane will change drastically. So, in this rapidly changing world, can Ansol survive with that kind of personality? I don’t think so. Didn’t I always say that? You never know what might happen on the hole plane. This case was just that. If we made a mistake, Ansol could be exploited, or at worst, it could go wrong. Fortunately, we managed to prevent it this time, but we can’t guarantee that it won’t happen again in the future.”
“No way Sol… .”
“If only it were like before. Yes, I see. are you okay. If it’s difficult to say, you don’t have to. You must have said this. Well, honestly, I’m comfortable with that too. “I don’t have to worry about anything and just focus on my work.”
“… … !”
Ahn Hyun’s bowed head and slumped shoulders flinch. However, it was Kim who had been kicked out, and it was necessary to speak a little stronger in order to tear down the solid wall. First of all, I planned to make Ahn Hyeon aware of the importance of the situation. And then, he has to shake his emotions.
“but… . I can’t do that anymore. In the past. Hanbyeol Kim from the User Academy once asked this question. Why doesn’t he join the Golden Lion? Why are you kicking this great opportunity away? “What would I have answered then?”
“… … .”
“I’m not as good a person as you guys think. I am very suspicious and have a hard time trusting people. But still. This world called Hol Plain is not a world where you can live alone. In the end, you have to have a colleague to live with and help you. So I answered. I’m going to create my own clan. “No matter what happens, a family-like clan made up of only people I can trust.”
“family… . Hey… ?”
The moment the word family was mentioned, Ahn Hyun’s eyes shook mercilessly. I didn’t miss that reaction. After drinking the liquid still left in the bottle to quench my thirst, I immediately continued what I had prepared.
“I gave up the Golden Lion, but it was the same situation for you. Because I rejected offers from mid-sized clans. To put it bluntly, did I have any clues back then? All I had was the 2 gold coins I received from the User Academy, and I was a penniless zero-year user. Nevertheless, you followed me without asking, and in the square, you took out gold coins and handed them to me. “How do you think I felt at that time?”
“brother… .”
“Hyuna. lets think. You, me, Sol, and Yujeong have been together ever since the rite of passage. Now we are no longer strangers or strangers. That’s why I can’t wait any longer. Because I know that if things continue like this, Ansol will go wrong one day. “I know it will happen, but should I just leave it like this just because I don’t want to talk about it?”
Anhyun shook his head slowly, very slowly. There was a strong feeling that it was stirred reflexively rather than voluntarily.
This is the last time. I looked straight into Anhyeon’s eyes. And then he quietly opened his mouth.
“Hyuna. Don’t run away anymore, let’s give it a try. My brother will help you. Just like he always has. huh?”
“ah… .”
At my words, Anhyun looked like she had forgotten what to say. Her eyes were trembling and her lips were licking, as if she was about to shed tears. I didn’t avoid that guy’s gaze.
Eventually, the wind died down completely, and the surroundings became so quiet that even the sound of breathing could be heard. Suddenly, a hot energy felt between the fingers of my right hand. When I reflexively looked away, I could see that all the tobacco that I had not even smoked had burned and touched my skin. As I was about to drop it, a low voice came from ahead.
“under… . that’s right.”
“?”
How on earth should I express Ahn Hyun’s face when she looked back? Her eyes are blank and her mouth is open. It seems powerless. At first glance, she seemed carefree, but at other times she seemed possessed by something.
“You’re right. Sol… . “Compared to his age, his behavior was a little, if not a lot, strange.”
Ahn Hyeon finally spoke his first words. She opened a small gap in her tightly closed heart. I answered right away to open the gap even further.
“okay. I had a rough guess that there was a problem. But that’s nothing to be ashamed of, right? Every modern person has at least one… .”
“No. No. brother. That’s not it. “That’s not it.”
And at that moment, Ahn Hyun’s eyes twinkled. Eventually, the guy let out a sigh that seemed to come from deep within his heart. Then he continued speaking with a heartless laugh.
“It’s not that much… . How serious is Sol-i? It’s not something that can be packaged in such nice words. yes. that’s right. “Our Sol is a mentally challenged child.”
‘He seemed like a psychopath.’
Suddenly, the words that Go Yeon-ju had said before passed through my head.
“… “Does Sol know that too?”
“You must be aware of it. I’ve taken him to the hospital a few times. But she probably doesn’t know why she ended up like this.”
What does this mean again? When I raise my head with a puzzled look, I see Ahn Hyun with a bitter look on his face. The guy slowly parted his lips.
“I lost my memory once a few years ago. Not entirely, but partially. If you had asked Ansol, she probably wouldn’t have been able to answer correctly. It’s not that I didn’t do it.”
“what… ?”
‘Memory loss… ?’
This was something completely unexpected to me, who had always thought of me as having an intellectual disability. Ignoring my reaction, Ahn Hyeon continued to open his mouth.
“When I think about it, I think I’ve been to the hospital a lot. I don’t know much about the mind either. But I visited many hospitals, and each hospital I visited had a different story. It’s schizophrenia. It is a dissociative disorder. It’s a mood disorder. It is a delusional disorder. It’s trauma. It is hysterical neurosis. Or because of extreme stress. haha… . But that’s the way it is. “The world of the human mind is inherently so profound, and Ansol is particularly complex, so it is difficult to make a final diagnosis using modern psychiatry.”
“… Right. What do you mean by amnesia?”
“ah… . brother. Do you know what it is called dissociative amnesia? ah. “Did you say it was psychogenic amnesia?”
I barely nodded. I didn’t know the details, but I knew the general symptoms. Simply put, it is a disorder that prevents one from recalling important past memories, and in severe cases it may be accompanied by symptoms such as confusion, depression, anxiety, age regression, suicidal impulses, and interpersonal difficulties.
I immediately came to my senses. And I quickly managed my facial expression, thinking that it was important from now on.
“To Ansol… . “So what happened to her?”
“What’s going on… . Yes… .”
“Then what exactly happened to Ansol that caused him to exhibit such mental disorders?”
Anhyeon did not answer right away. He was just looking down at the ground with a heavy face. But, that was only for a moment. Her eyes seemed to become sad, as if she was trying to remember something, and she slowly raised her head and began to look up at me. Just like that, Ahn Hyeon and I met her gaze in the air.
Eventually, Anhyun’s mouth opened.
—————————= Review of the work ——————– ——-=
I read all the articles after the semester started. I received a lot of criticism through messages, comments, etc.
I suddenly feel like I’m in too much of a hurry. Why is the writing so twisted? Or I don’t understand why this part suddenly appears, etc.
After thinking about it carefully, I think I may have missed a lot of things while trying to force the pace of development due to my lack of skills. I should blame myself. ㅜ.ㅠ
Anyway, for the time being, I plan to serialize at my original pace to unravel the kinks and recover my writing skills. I can’t ruin Memorize because of my greed. haha.
Of course, we plan to continue the daily series. On the days when it comes up late, I would appreciate it if you thought that I was polishing the writing a little more.
I’m very tired today. My body and head are dizzy, so I’m going to play League of Legends(?) to recover!
We will post the re-ripples together in the next episode. ah. Except for one person.
letzgo02 / Congratulations on your return! yes. Secret classes cannot be duplicated. In the case of Kim Soo-hyun, all information was made public thanks to a special privilege, but under normal circumstances, duplicate information would not be available. Of course there are exceptions. This is the case with Kim Soo-hyun, Vivien, and Shin Sang-yong. 🙂
And congratulations on passing the exam. A police exam! You are truly amazing, and I envy you. 😀 Clap clap clap!
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