[Can I see you tonight?]
Now, even a simple, insignificant text makes my head spin. Since he entered the hospital, his schedule was so tight that he had never had a chance to rest, so it wasn’t like he was avoiding him on purpose. However, he could have come to see my face for a moment, but even though I knew that, I sent a difficult answer saying that it would be difficult in the end.
Why did I do that?
A feeling of frustration that I didn’t even know rose to the top of my throat. In fact, Lee Han didn’t even ask me, saying he knew very well, but I was already fiddling with my phone dozens more times.
“Now that I think about it, the teachers in the ward were in an uproar. “I saw the chairman in the underground parking lot.”
“Well, in the parking lot?”
“yes. He said he saw it in the underground parking lot while going out to eat. “I heard he had a very serious expression on his face.”
“ah… … I see.”
Hae-joon, who had raised his voice without realizing it, cleared his throat. He was probably on his way back home. Minguk’s eyebrows drooped as he watched her closely as she forced herself to adjust her expression. The professor’s small shoulders, which were already full of responsibilities, seemed especially burdened ahead of the board of directors’ presentation.
“Anyway, it would be nice if other professors could join us. Shall we go pray with Kyungmin, Sangcheol, and I?”
“What are you begging for?”
Hae-joon smiled brightly, deliberately trying to cheer up, and held up the document as if to show off. Even if your mind is cluttered with your own work, it should not interfere with the work that contains your children’s earnest wishes and future.
“First of all, I will prepare the materials to submit to the board of directors, and we can do as much as we can. “I posted a plan once before, so please refer to that.”
“Still, it would be good if you talked to the professors. “If it’s a heart center, it’s not like other professors aren’t interested at all.”
“I guess so.”
It is natural that thoracic surgeons value the heart. However, it cannot be said that that sense of responsibility and mission is always the top priority for each individual.
Everyone has a family and something to protect.
Perhaps because it was natural, Hae-jun, who did not want to easily blame anyone, quickly sent the children away first.
“You guys are good at what you do. “There’s surgery tomorrow morning as well.”
“It’s the same with the professor. “The professor said it was the same as having surgery without being able to sleep.”
“I am… … “I can’t sleep well.”
It may seem like an excuse, but I really haven’t slept properly in days. Whether I was lying on the bed or leaning on a chair, my eyes filled with something else, as if I was waiting to be alone. It was the thought of someone who couldn’t erase it once it came to mind, so I gave up even the thought of shaking it off.
Still, it worked out better.
Since I started knowing that I couldn’t get help from anyone, it wasn’t enough to double or triple up on other people’s work. As if pushed, the children left and the door closed. Hae-joon returned to the desk and tied his hair tightly.
“… … .”
How long has it been like that?
She had been continuously drawing with her pen, not even noticing the passage of time, but stopped before raising her head. As I quickly stopped the bleeding from her nose, the fishy scent of her blood ran down my throat. I didn’t stay up all night or two, but I pushed myself as if today was the only day.
“iced coffee.”
I feel like I’ll get motion sick just looking at the same document anymore. She was hurriedly putting away her papers, fearing that she might get blood on them, but as if guided, she picked up a small notebook at the edge of her desk. When a familiar contract unfolded between the sheets of paper he had been flipping through without thinking, Hae-joon buried his head and closed his eyes.
“Chairman Seo said there will be good news soon.”
“Hmm.”
This can’t be good news for me.
From that day on, it was difficult to look at Lee Han because the words that could not be shaken from my ears. Even when I ran into him in the VIP ward, I tried to act as if nothing had happened, but from the moment he turned around, my heart tightened.
Even if he gave me an uncharacteristically friendly eye smile, and even if the hard corners of his mouth softened slightly the moment we met in the lobby, my heart was strangely touched and I couldn’t smile along.
To me, Seo Yi-han is just Seo Yi-han, but in his family, he may not be just Yoon Hae-jun. He thought that the real thing was better than the fake, but when his feelings for Lee Han became real, the weight of them became so heavy.
It was as wet as cotton, so much so that my feet were completely soaked every time I took a step towards him.
‘Is love really separate from marriage?’
You have to have met a chaebol to know this.
Probably not, I thought, but when it actually became my job, I was dazed. I wanted to grab Lee Han right now and ask him what to do now, but just thinking about what would come out of his mouth made the tip of my nose hurt.
I didn’t know what he would say if I met him with this mindset, so I just wanted to take as much time as possible to regain my senses, but the more time I spent, the more complicated my mind became.
okay. If the wife of a chaebol family makes up her mind, it wouldn’t be a problem to separate her from her.
Then there’s no way you can be obedient to that guy’s personality. He would definitely get into a big fight with his parents and run away from home, then… … No! If I don’t run out, wouldn’t that be more of a problem for me?
“Oh, I can’t!”
Let’s think about it. slowly. Step by step.
Hae-joon, who was flipping through his notebook, held his pen again on a blank page. As always, when his head is complicated, if you remove them one by one, only the last sincerity remains.
Seo Yihan. The eldest son of Seomun Group and the chairman of the board of directors of Cheil Hospital, and his lover.
If that great family really prepares for their son’s marriage, and if that’s why I can’t meet Lee Han anymore… … . As she pressed down her heart, word by word, her energy drained and she leaned her forehead against hers. Only when the cool piece of paper touched her hot forehead did her heated heart calm down.
‘What is all this about?’
She squeezed her tired eyes, straightened her shoulders, and looked down at her phone. She wondered if she had heard from him, but her heart sank at the sight of her blank screen. I was the one who said it would be difficult to meet him, but now I don’t know exactly what I want.
“… … “I need to wake up.”
Hae-joon stood up as if trying to shake off the growing emptiness in his heart. Do you think it will get better if you drink coffee? I don’t know where I’m going and I can’t find my usual spiritedness as I walk aimlessly. Hae-jun, who was walking to the vending machine at the end of the hallway, suddenly changed direction at some point.
no.
Why do I go there?
No, why can’t I go?
Although I was walking as if I was being led, I didn’t know why I was heading there. I can’t find anything, whether it’s coffee that will wake me up or the night air that will cool my heart. Even though I knew all that, my steps continued downward and only downward. As if I had buried some secret treasure, my steps gradually accelerated as I went down the stairs.
With a clang, Hae-joon opened the last thick iron door and held his breath for a moment. My first reaction was the pounding of my heart just by the cool, humid air touching my skin.
… … no way. Probably not.
My legs moved on their own, taking two steps to somewhere I knew. Even though I knew it couldn’t be like that, my body and mind felt different. I was able to hold on while the sun was still up, but now no one can stop me.
No, I already knew that stopping it wasn’t going to happen. Again and again, perhaps because of the still fishy nosebleed or because of the daze from staying up all night, my footsteps as I walked through the underground parking lot echoed as loudly as my heartbeat.
“Haaa.”
Hae-joon’s bangs fluttered with his heavy breathing as he approached the reserved seat where Lee Han’s car was always parked. Now that the door to her director’s office is closed, this is the only place she can go.
okay. Let’s go in a little while. Just a little bit.
Her heated lips trembled. Because I really like underground parking lots. Even though I don’t have a car, anyone can like it… … .
“That’s bad.”
“… … .”
“Not you, me.”
As soon as he saw Lee Han leaning against his reserved seat, the black car, Hae Joon’s expression completely collapsed beyond expression. He couldn’t follow a man his age if he wasn’t stopped, whether in a dream or in reality.
“… … Well, what is it? “Why is Lee Han here?”
I know this isn’t the question for me to ask after coming this far, but I have nothing else to say. A black coat and suit that fit perfectly on his slender body, and a tie that looked a little familiar. It was all the same as I knew, but there seemed to be a cool scent coming from the receding hair that was not suitable for an underground parking lot.
Like the scent of the blue sea that day when he visited me on the island, the scent was moving.
“I told you not to wait because I’m late.”
“It was like that.”
“But why are you waiting? I knew when I would come out. No, what if it doesn’t come out? Do you know what time it is now? “What if I really stay up all night?”
“I haven’t thought about that.”
“… … .”
“I’m waiting for my girl, what reason do I need?”
Hae-joon’s eyes were shaken by the arrogant eyes that were raised straight up. At the same time as he was relieved to hear such a perfect answer, his heart filled with joy. He was still dizzy from the faint scent of blood that lingered every time he breathed in, so he wiped the tip of his stinging nose with the back of his hand.
“… … Well, that’s right. then. I am,”
“you are?”
“… … .”
“Why did you come here?”
Lee Han uncrossed his arms and walked straight towards Hae Joon. He told me to answer, no, to run away. She had an unparalleled darkness hanging over her head.
“They said they were busy and told me not to wait.”
“… … .”
“You said you had to stay up all night, there was so much to do and no time to sleep, so why are you here?”
“Now, let’s go to sleep.”
I came to sleep.
In the familiar darkness that surrounded his body as if it had been tailored to him, Hae-joon had no choice but to open his pouting lips. Why did I come all the way here? The vague reason that I deliberately tried not to think about while walking down the long hallway of the medical office and the even longer and steeper stairs suddenly flashed in front of his ever-arrogant face.
“Before I go to bed, I just wanted to take a look.”
“okay.”
Lee Han’s calm voice, whose emotions could not be read, surrounded her. There was no reason to listen to any more reasons, so he led Haejun with his arms full.
“Come here. “I’ll let you sleep.”
