“They say you have to come before dawn to set sail, so why come out already?”
“no. “I just want to get some air.”
A kind-hearted lady at a bed and breakfast in front of the port looked worriedly at Hae-joon as he was putting on his shoes. He seemed to be worried that the young lady had come to the island alone, so he knocked on the door several times since early evening.
“why. “Is it because you can’t find the person you’re looking for?”
“yes?”
“You said you were looking for someone earlier. “Who the hell is that person?”
The woman clicked her tongue at Hae-joon, who was holding her cell phone tightly. It was not uncommon for people to come looking for people on land. I didn’t ask about it because it couldn’t possibly be a good thing, but for some reason, my eyes kept falling on this pretty girl.
“I’m going to cry a lot at this rate.”
“Oh, no.”
“why. Did you take the money and run away? Or are you doing harm?”
The woman who had been cautiously saying a few words has now settled down. When Hae-joon laughed as if he was embarrassed, she shook her head as if she didn’t even like it.
“Ugh. “I said I would look for someone while smiling so kindly.”
“… … madam.”
“I’ve been doing business here for decades, and I’ve seen a lot of people go around looking for someone, but I’ll never be able to find someone with a soft determination like you!”
As she was shouting like a brave fortune teller, she glanced at Hae Joon again. The pretty face like a doll and pensive eyes are definitely far from desperate.
“Then how can I find it?”
“Oh my, call it a horse. “The person who goes out in search has a very different look in their eyes?”
“… … .”
“You must feel determined to find it somehow, even if it means turning the whole world upside down. A person like that is immediately visible from the moment they first board the ship! “At this level, I will definitely go out and find it!”
She beat her chest in frustration at Hae Joon, who burst out laughing even though it was nothing to laugh about. Even if this lady tells me, I don’t believe it. Even though she tried to show off her eyes, Hae-jun just smiled.
“Anyway, I can’t find the lady. “I’m telling you because I’m afraid you’ll just lose your strength.”
“I can’t. “I really need to find you.”
“Then you better call the police. Shall I call you? “There is no one I don’t know here at the police box.”
“no! “That’s not possible!”
“… … .”
When Hae-joon, who had been laughing quietly the entire time, grabbed her arm, the expression on the lady’s face changed completely.
“what. Are you a wanted person? Does that make it harder to find?”
“Well, it’s not like that.”
Hae-jun hurriedly got up from the veranda, wondering if he was going to report it if he continued like this. If the person I’m looking for is truly an illegal alien, they will be deported as soon as they are caught. I said there was nothing I could do about it because it was the law of the Republic of Korea, but first of all, I was a patient. I checked my records at the hospital in Incheon before coming here, so if I were kicked out in that condition, I can’t guarantee my life or death, let alone my prognosis.
“Well then, I’ll go out front and walk a little bit. “It was frustrating to stay inside.”
“okay. then. Don’t go far, just take a lap around the sandy beach in front of you. Understand?”
“yes. sure!”
The landlady couldn’t take her eyes full of concern from Hae-joon’s back as he ran forward. No matter how you look at it, he is not a person who can catch someone.
“What’s wrong with that?”
The young lady may find my words laughable, but it is not so easy to accumulate experience as a bed and breakfast owner. Whether an enemy, a benefactor, or something more. The person who really came looking for someone had to have a different look in their eyes.
Day or night, desperate will and earnestness burn brightly throughout the body,
“Excuse me, but I have to ask you a question.”
“… … .”
okay. This guy should be good enough.
◇ ◆ ◇
… … Am I really not desperate?
Hae-joon, who was landing on the sandy beach, smiled weakly and pushed his hair behind his ear. I feel like I can feel the salty smell of the sea passing through my nose and into my mouth.
“If you see it that way, I guess I have nothing more to say.”
It’s not like that. I really wasn’t like that.
As I was walking on the sandy beach under the moonlight, my feet sank down, unable to control myself. Even though it wasn’t intentional, I just wanted to say something because I felt shameless about breaking my promise to him every time.
okay. Anything, excuse or not.
I just wanted to say one more thing. All I wanted was to say at least one more word and hear at least one more word from the man whose heart was pounding just thinking about it.
“… … “What do you mean when you say you like it?”
Hae-joon, who was muttering resentfully as if he was crying, pressed the corners of his eyes before he looked even more unsightly. What was unrealistic on land was also true on the island. In fact, it felt more like a dream, perhaps because of the sound of waves crashing all around.
“Then what about me, who likes that tough thoracic surgeon?”
Ha, it was so amazing that I couldn’t help but laugh. Who said you like it? So I told you in advance not to like it. But I couldn’t bear to laugh at him.
Because I know better than anyone else that what is in a person’s heart, whether it is his heart or his heart, never goes as he wants.
“… … .”
What should I do now?
After coming to this island and erasing the busy and confusing reality, my mind calmed down and became transparent like the sea. Although I couldn’t find the person I was looking for here, at some point I couldn’t even think about the foreign patient and only saw my own thoughts.
This is the man who makes my heart sink in shock when he is in front of me, but when he is not there, my heart tightens as if he were not there.
Just thinking about Lee Han made my mouth feel warm.
‘Why am I like this?’
Hae-joon unconsciously fiddled with his cell phone in his pocket. I remember when I first got his number and hesitated because it was hard to say a word, but now talking and spending time with this man has become quite natural.
No, maybe more.
Even the occasional laugh or half-hearted joke was not awkward. He doesn’t have a kind personality by nature, so he’s a man who just nods his head when I smile, but that also made me feel more comfortable.
“… … .”
Hae-joon took off his shoes and stared at his feet sinking into the sand. I thought it would be nice to be buried all the way down to his head, but I was afraid that if that happened, I wouldn’t be able to see anyone.
Since when did it start?
Was it from the time that thorough man brought me food, from the day he showed up at the cafeteria where I didn’t fit in, or from the time he scoffed at me for giggling as we stood side by side waiting for Yuhan?
Or maybe it was from the moment when I suddenly raised my eyes and he was looking at me.
“… … it’s crazy. really.”
Now I don’t even know if it’s being said to me or to him. I lifted my feet before I was buried any further, but my mind was scattered like sand, unable to figure out where to go. It’s not like I received a confession once or twice. There have been times when I wondered if this man’s feelings were like that.
“Why do you look at me like that?”
But the opponent is none other than Seo Yi-han. That illusion was quickly erased. No, it had to be erased.
Clearly debtors and creditors. He still had a mountain of debt to repay and he didn’t want to add anything else.
Besides, I also have eyes and ears, so why don’t I know?
He was a person who did not suit me in many ways. It wasn’t because I had low self-esteem, it was because of social norms. The more I looked at Lee Han standing next to me, the more I knew that there must be someone else who would be suitable for a man like that, both financially and professionally.
“I’ll sign it for you, so you don’t have to look at it.”
What kind of person would this man’s real partner be?
I thought about it countless times while shaking my head at the man who was holding a fountain pen and laughing. When I pay back all the money and meet a real person instead of a fake like me, will those painted eyes change a little? Then, feeling bitter, I intentionally smiled louder.
Hae-joon walked around the sandy beach and bit his mouth hard at the port when he returned.
“… … .”
What are all these yachts on this small island?
I wondered if there would be another combination that didn’t go together as well as Seo Yi-han who came to the cafeteria, but if you look closely, there are a lot of things in the world that don’t go together. Hae-joon couldn’t help but burst into laughter when he saw the gorgeous yacht that could carry all the islanders he met today.
This is truly a dream-like place.
Even though I didn’t drink a single drop of alcohol, I felt strangely lighter. It’s a dream that ends today anyway, and there’s no one to stop me just because I’m drunk. She was staring at her yacht with narrowed eyes, but for a moment, she turned her head towards her guest house.
“okay.”
If you think you’re drunk, there’s nothing you can’t say.
