Hae-joon suppressed the laughter that threatened to burst out and stared straight at Professor Deok-hwan Choi.
“Don’t you know how much the center director wanted to build a heart transplant center? That’s what all of us in CS hope for.”
“… … .”
Looking at it, it looks like not everyone. As several professors quickly averted their eyes, Hae-joon stretched out his clenched hand and ran his hand through his hair, as if trying to calm his mind. There was no way he would feel better, but he felt like if he didn’t use his hands, he would end up using his fists for something else.
“Well, anyway, it’s what the hospital promised. “Due to the illness of the center director, we were not able to submit it in next year’s budget, but we will be reviewing the supplementary budget soon, so we need to get confirmation somehow before that.”
“Then what should I do? “The former chairman is gone, and the new chairman is coming.”
Professor Choi, who flinched under Hae-joon’s strong gaze, belatedly snorted. How dare we hold on to professors who are so familiar with the topic of first-year fellows. The way he was sitting crooked, with his hands on the armrests, was extremely tiresome.
“We are just doing what we are told above and not doing what we are told to do. “Isn’t that why they chose it?”
“Professor Choi. “If we all go together and make a suggestion to the chairman,”
“it’s okay. What kind of contract did you have written down, and did you get it stamped? “There’s no way the people there will keep their promise, and it’s a question of whether or not they should at least say something to the center director.”
It may seem like a compliment to the center director, but to Hae-joon, the meaning was blatant: ‘Are you worthy of that kind of military service number?’ When the other professors also silently stood up from their seats as if they were trying to protect themselves, Hae-joon had no choice but to bow his head.
For some reason, Professor Choi, who had been sitting in his chair until the end, stood in front of her with a sly smile on his face.
“Professor Yoon. “You know that just because you call them professor doesn’t mean they are all the same professor, right?”
“… … .”
“If you think about it, isn’t it good for both Professor Yoon and us? It’s not easy to find a professorship in thoracic surgery in Korea, and if you just stay still, the director of the center will recommend you and give you a position, but you’re so greedy that even the transplant center is there.”
Tsk tsk, I’ll make it work anyway.
Professor Choi clicked his tongue openly and glared at her through his silver-rimmed glasses until the moment she left the conference room.
Hae-joon, who had his head down, only stood up after a while and wiped his face.
“ha.”
It’s not some kind of botanical garden.
I feel like my heart is pounding as I look at all these helpless, yellow, withered creatures.
“Professor Yoon! Are you okay?”
“… … huh. “That’s how it should be.”
If it’s okay for me, won’t I move forward even if it means wrapping these human plants around my body?
Hae-joon, who was forced to become the director of the botanical garden as the head of the household was not enough, shook his head as if trying to erase the afterimage of the obnoxious Professor Choi. In fact, he didn’t have much expectations. The fact that these helpless people were appointed to the faculty in the first place allowed the hospital to sum up in one word exactly what it expected of them.
Be quiet and stay where you are given.
Performing major, life-threatening surgeries such as thoracic surgery only incurs greater risks for the hospital. The profit may be high because the cost is high, but there is so much manpower that it is not possible to use it here and there, and if a patient goes wrong, all responsibility is transferred to the hospital. However, since it is impossible to remove thoracic surgery from a high-level general hospital, it would have been reorganized to only have a ‘possible or absent’ assortment.
“… … Professor Yoon. “It would be nice if we could help, too.”
“huh? no. are you okay.”
Hae-joon patted the shoulders of Minguk, the head of the National Assembly, who looked very downcast, and Gyeongmin, a third-year student. There is no need to inform children of the harsh reality in advance who have already chosen a difficult path.
“You guys are doing great. “You just have to hold out for three months, until the center director comes back.”
“But…” … . “Is it really possible that a heart transplant center won’t be created?”
“Huh?”
Hae-joon hesitated at the question Gyeong-min carefully asked. It’s just that she can’t openly reveal her expectations like other medical residents, but she is the only one who has run so far by clinging to that one thing. One of the reasons why she had been stuck in the operating room instead of these helpless plant professors until now was to show that she could do thoracic surgery as well.
“I have to make it. “He will make it for you.”
“… … However, we asked around and the new chairman said it was no joke.”
“Chairman?”
Come to think of it, the center director also said something similar. At that time, he was shocked by the fact that the most reliable center director was away, so he didn’t ask or find out properly, but at this point, he was curious.
“What do you think? “Isn’t he just a chaebol?”
“He’s not just any conglomerate. One of my high school classmates was on the Seomun Automotive Strategy Team, so I asked him about it… … . Ugh.”
“Why?”
Hae-joon also became serious when he saw the good-natured kid shaking without even being able to speak. In fact, he is the chairman. It would be difficult for ordinary doctors like us to see his face properly. The previous chairman was also old and could not particularly observe the practice, but the Seomun Group, which took over the hospital, left it as a courtesy.
I heard that it exists somewhere, but the person that no one has really seen is the chairman.
“A chaebol is a chaebol. “We are all people with racing hearts, so is there anything special about it?”
“As expected, it’s Professor Yoon!”
Gyeongmin put his hands together, as if he had finally gained some strength. Hae-joon forced himself to keep his mouth shut as the residents praised him, saying things like, “We only trust Professor Yoon,” and “Professor Yoon is the last light in CS.”
‘driving me crazy.’
The road ahead of me is 90,000 miles, and now I’m acting like someone else’s lighthouse.
Their overwhelming expectations weighed on Hae-joon’s slender shoulders. Nevertheless, the reason why I can’t stop Hae-joon from doing it is not because I am, as they say, a ‘capable and trustworthy head of the family’.
“… … “I can’t tell you how fortunate I am to have a professor in CS.”
Because I never knew the desperate feeling of wanting to lean on someone.
“professor?”
“huh. then. don’t worry.”
Hae-joon patted the shoulders of the residents who were tilting their heads and lifted their chins. Be confident without any flaws, and don’t lose no matter where you put it! This too was just image management that I planned with the center director in advance, but after 10 months, I’ve gotten quite used to it.
“Professor Park, like this?”
“Spread your shoulders a little more. “Don’t smile at people carelessly.”
“… … professor.”
“This is not Korea University. “People come from all over, so the factional fights are intense, and if you look even the slightest bit easy, they will try to slander you and bite you.”
Especially for a young, female surgeon like you.
Although he did not necessarily add the last word, he is not unaware of the concerns contained therein. In fact, even at Korea University Hospital, which boasts the largest number of medical staff in Korea, the surgical department is dominated by men, so it goes without saying here.
Among the entire faculty, you can count women among the top ten. In order to become a full-time professor, she had to do more than just manage her image.
“I plan to only follow Professor Yoon from now on.”
“me too!”
“… … .”
Of course, I didn’t know that I would become the head of the household.
“Anyway, buy it and don’t worry. The only thing that the transplant center doesn’t have a proper department for right now is cardiology, so the hospital probably knows that. “You can stay at Hankuk University. It’s a promise I made when I brought you here, so I have to keep it.”
“Yes? “I guess so too, right?”
“then. “You guys will recognize that you are working so hard.”
No matter how much you think about it, this is the only way. Just be faithful to each role in each position, and you cannot let go of yourself just because others are helpless. Never giving up until the last moment is the biggest lesson she learned at Korean University.
“Ah, but what did the new chairman say earlier?”
“no. “Professor Yoon is strong, so I guess we were worried for no reason.”
Gyeongmin became embarrassed later, then smiled and waved his hands. Hae-joon’s eyes widen as he expresses interest, but to those who are thoroughly trained to manage her image, she only appears as a ‘cooler-hearted ice queen.’
“And I’m sure it’s all exaggerated. Well, not to animals, but to people.”
“… … “Aren’t you human?”
“That’s not it, my friend says that people are definitely people, but the overall feeling is a bit…” … .”
Kyungmin had no idea how to explain so he just scratched his head. What on earth is he saying? Hae-joon, who was listening to Kyung-min’s stuttering words, organized them one by one.
“therefore… … People are people, but somehow they look like animals, and they are scary enough to make you tremble… … “You can’t take your eyes off me?”
Isn’t this a bit much?
After speaking, the words made even more sense, so Hae-joon smiled and asked, “What kind of nonsense are you talking about?” Kyungmin and Minguk also looked at each other and smiled shyly at her rarely seen big smile.
“I’m just saying that. He’s my friend, but he’s a bit of a liar. “It’s a kkun, a kkun.”
“hey. What kind of guy do you hang out with? Professor Yoon must be laughing inside. “Stop talking about scammers like that.”
“no. “I’m not laughing at you.”
I’m going to be a no-nonsense cheater sooner or later, guys.
Hae-joon bit the inside of his mouth, unable to cry or laugh. Other people may think that CS doctors only need to perform surgery, but that is something they really don’t know. From the moment I became a member of the cardiothoracic surgery department, the so-called infinite loop of ant hell, I had to somehow attract my juniors with the mission, ‘I can’t die alone.’
Even if we die, let’s die together.
Until last year, there was nothing we didn’t do to create a ‘hell where everyone is happy’. Kidnapping, intimidation, begging and training. When I think about what I did to my juniors at Hankuk University Hospital, I can never be honest in front of them.
‘I can’t believe I’m going to do this again this year.’
